Prelim 1 is over at least for now. 一个字－惨。考完的我想快乐却乐不起来， 好像说声“对不起” not to myself but to Ms Lee and esp. Ms Tan. 现在走过她们时，觉得好内疚。Feel that I've failed them. Maths 虽然说有读但或许还不够吧，first paper come out, sad. 好多好熟悉的题目，开始是非常德开心，以为自己会做，但总是做到一半便忘了一些东西，无法继续。 Second paper 时是带着忐忑不安的心情进去的。Its an afternoon paper, so before that 是死命的在读，but everything seems to go in and come out can't seems to remember anything. 进去证明了nothing is retained in my memory. Equations that I'm revising before that can't come to mind.出来时是无奈，有点绝望的。Chem更不用说了。Well first paper is better than expected though well its still very bad lar but I've expected worst... Second paper-structured.做到一半我真的好想放弃了。In the end I think half of the paper is blank well partly also no time lar. 9 long structured questions in 1h30mins. Can't make it lar. Physics 是唯一一个还好的， 但出来对了答案后发现其实自己也有许多mistakes. =X Haiz.
但一切以过去了no point keep dwelling on it. Time to move on. For now I tell myself, from today till Wednesday I'll not think about my papers my mistakes my results. Cause I can't afford to. Competition is on Wednesday, I can't afford to be distracted. After that it will really be serious mugging.这次将不会时说说而已了！
Keep thinking that I'll further update this entry... but 这一十好几天前的事了，当时所要表达的情感也消失了，意义也不存在了。 Therefore, this entry will end here. Will be after the next entry after publishing this, to record the present.
