Monday, December 01, 2014
~ 1:55 AM ~
I'm not sure why am i here on a Sunday night.. torturing myself with the past. Going to suffer with work in the morning..
Not that i can fall asleep anytime soon with this horrible gastric.. :S
30112014.. Happy Birthday my friend..
i no longer know what i think. And i guess it no longer really matter.
Shall get back to trying to sleep..
Thursday, March 13, 2014
~ 1:55 AM ~
12 Mar 14 17:15
It's been awhile.. sitting in a little corner in Arab Street, watching the worrld goes by.
Walking around with my gadgets with an empty mind make me feel that I'm back overseas travelling alone. Miss it.
Life is changing once more.. office politics, restructuring, time to get a new job. But before that, its time to think what I want.. should I travel first? If yes, where? If no, will I have another chance?
Should I further study? Should I stay in this field? What's next? For now, I've think alot but yet to do anything, yet to make up my mind. I guess part of me is still waiting a sign from God to tell me where to head next.. haha
人生啊，人生.. 就不过如此。
But one thing that I'm always thankful for are those around me. The blessings that Almighty seems to shower me with. I just hope that those around now can always be in touch.. cos I know how hard it is for someone to stay by your side for a life time..
recently.. its another lost friend. another who just walked away.. one whom we thought will never just leave like this. 只能说，人心难测啊！
Well, let's see when will be the next time I can drop in a post like this once more.:)
Thursday, July 04, 2013
~ 1:20 AM ~
Its been such a LONG LONG TIME! 2 more months to a year.. so much things had change!
Coming to the blog. I'm lost in my own memories. That seems like such a long time ago and I'm unsure where to start from.. Let's start with life these days..
Life is mostly about work now.. and I'm questioning about my purpose in life frequently.
When I last posted, its on the trip with WL to HK. Then, I'm not even in my current process team.. I've yet to experience the OT life. Still like a newbie in the office though I had been in SAP for 9 months back then.
Once back from HK, all crap flood in.. hell broke loose haha. Drowned, dead, being resuscitate and kept under close observation.. haha. Its horrible. The only thing that kept me going will be the buddies at work. the clique and especially OTG - OT gang haha. We can make coming back to office on a weekend like a party.. amazing people. one day when we have to 各分东西 I'll miss them so much..
No matter how bad work is, I thank god for giving me them, for always blessing me with 贵人 at work.
Now.. I'm crossing off days till moving to another team.. supposedly the 天堂 haha. But well, we will only know when I'm there.. and even if work indeed get better, other factors will play a part too.. let's just hope for the best.
turnover rate is just bad in office right now.. it provided opportunity for people to be developed but it also shows that things are not that well right now..
ok enough of work stuff.. some other updates though it might involve otg too haha. that's how much they had invaded my life to a certain extent lol.
再次看了五月天~! not with tong this time.. she's faraway in China.. but with WL and LC :)
the love for Mayday had brought us together! haha. then I will never imagine myself watching a concert with my manager haha. I just hope things won't be different as I change team.. afterall she's the manager lol. Mayday is <3 :) it still brings smile thinking back. but its just too hard to describe lol.
2013. I'm 25 le. a quarter of my life (provided i live till 100) or more haha.
I achieved something that I had always wanted to do and cross off my bucket list..
I travelled alone! Solo trip to Taiwan in April this year! :) 3 April to 8 April. Its a great experience that just makes me want more haha. Already planning to make this a yearly thing and go ahead again next year! haha but its time to save up first.. afterall we 're going to achieve something I always wanted to do too.. End Year countdown in Taipei with ZHSJ family! the whole gang of us! :) can't wait too..
its late.. time to sleep.. shall see if I will start blogging again if life gets better in "heaven" haha.
Monday, September 10, 2012
~ 1:39 AM ~
Well well.. Its been a long time.. And this first one after so long
Will be a greeting from overseas :)
Following post done earlier today..
909 such a nice date.. its 3 to the power of 3..
Its been sooo long since I last blog..
Busy, lazy, and by not blogging, the past won't be visit that often, the unknown future won't matter that much
Enjoy the happy moments right before me as I've learned too many times that such moments passed by too fast. And no matter how good something is, it won't last forever.
Of course there are sad times. But like the happy times, they don't last forever. These days, if its from external source, I'll just bear with it and hope it will be over soon..
life became a day by day thing..
Only with somethings to break the pattern now and then..
Like now! Typing this on a plane. Yup airplane! Flying off for a random impromptu trip.. jump at the chance once my colleague mentioned going overseas even though its Hong Kong again. 就是好想出国.. Doesn't really matter where.
Whenver packing my bag for a trip, writing and looking through my packing list, I'll miss those days when we plan daily attire. "Those days" moments. Some things I still can't change for each trip.. bag tags, wu gui.
Haiz. gave up planning with aunty, darl they all too. Its hard when not all wanted to go for it.. Its just one of those sad regrets in life.. But well life is unpredictable.. Never says never ba.. Haha
Taking long leave from work is a new thing to me.. The amount of work to do before that was so much now than expected lol. Going back to work next week will be another new thing - drowning under work lol.
But overall work had been not too bad.. A large part of it will be for the great friends made there. We click. I'm very gladful that I always meet great people in work place : )
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I'm getting sleepy again.. Shall nap again.
Some summary highlights that I can remember for the past few months.
Convocation.. Finally after one year..Didn't wanted to go but think my parents are looking forward to it. They're excited while I cant be bothered. Lol. Uni is a part of life that just came and gone. Perhaps its not where I wanted to be right from the start, didn't put the effort in to like it..
Oh , joined the gun club member like finally! :) took the course and sign up for member after going for the one time course with the kids..hopefully I won't waste the membership.
Bought a new bottle and a gift to myself on national day.. changed our polar after these 3 years.. another part left behind. Another step forward..
Ok cmi need sleep. nights
Saturday, May 19, 2012
~ 1:46 PM ~
Nothing is permanent on sands of time.
Nothing, but the memories in heart will remain.
And the images in mind shall forever live.
Nothing will reappear, Nothing will repeat.
Never forget, But dare to dream.
Life will change and it will be better.
Possibly it may be better than before.
-Pravs World
Had such a vivid dream again.. another painful dream. but I've learnt that what passed is past.
What ahead may be better than before but the memories in heart will always remain.
I hope it had been a good past memories for them too and not like my dream whereby its written happy-less..
Saturday, May 05, 2012
~ 7:11 PM ~
5.59pm.. 050512. Vesek day.
Sitting in a corner of 光明山.. the newly renovated park.. A new place in a familiar place, at a new time on a familiar day.
This year is the first year that I didn't do 三步一拜 since I've started in 2005.. I think. And its been even longer since I've not come to 光明山 on the eve of Vesek day. 今年什么都破例了。and its giving me a very bad omen.. afterall, this year everything had not been smooth..
As I finally reached home yesterday with my stomach aching that lasted longer than anyone before.. So bad that the chest and back hurts too.. And I'm one who always think my tolerance of pain is quite high lol.
I played a thousand sceneries over my mind.. At that moment I won't be surprise if I won't see the morning..
How glad I am to wake up on the sofa feeling alright once more in the morning.. With no memories how I feel asleep.. last memory of myself groaning in pain. Thankful I'm blessed in my own way.
0505: This Vesek day is the 5th Vesek day since the first one we did.
0505 is also the day that I last remembered what we talked about.. Its been 2 years..
光明山.. Its once where we stand and prayed through together. Though my wish then might not have been seen, I believed perhaps its just me who don't understand.. perhaps its for a greater good..
Things had slowly fade.. memories are no longer as clear.. as we build new great memories, they will slowly push back those older ones.. Especially those we'll like to hide.. But at unexpected times, we might accidentally touch those hidden ones which will then overwhelm us.
Its up to us.. How we want to fight back.. Its up to us not to let the past swallow us up again..
I've went through these feelings for the past 2 years (seriously I cant believe its only 2 years..), I might have sank into emo-ness for these few hours when I walk through the past with tears rolling in the eyes.. But I believe I can leave all this behind as I leave.
after all, the past is gone, the future is unknown, let's live in the present!
Be blessed my dearest. SASATH.
Be blessed my family. May all the obstacles we faced be gone peacefully.
Time to be back to reality.
Monday, April 23, 2012
~ 11:06 PM ~
Tired tired..
Fully packed every weekend and get even more tired on Monday.. :/ haha.
but well no regrets..
cos 青春是挽不回的水转眼消失在指间
用力的浪费再用力的后悔
haha.
Body aching all around.. not from the JP Morgan run but from Sat's blading.
Yes, we Finally went to blade! like after 3 years of saying.. lol.
Some falls.. but still not that good.. haha. Hopefully our next blading session won't be that far away.. :)
Switch, K, Movie, Blade. All packed into the weekend. Ultimate Fun Packed Awesomeness..
but Through the joy and fun.. now and then there's the glimpse of some thoughts of last week's event in each of us..
Too many different idealogy, too many different thought and way of doing things.. see them having to fight for each of their stand.. I'm tired. Won't want to be one of the barriers that they have to fight through too..
Yet at the same time I know I won't be able to just don't care.. afterall we've came so far.. so shall just try keep my silence for now and see how things go.. maybe I just think too much and everything will turn out fine..
Watched Battleship over the weekend.. Great movie! made me think of more things though. haha.
what's our purpose in life? what can I achieve?
today while working these thoughts ran through now and then..
other than enjoying life on weekends, monday to friday are meaningless work.
If some major crisis happen, what will my role be to the world? haha.
I know these are meaningless thoughts but well..
I know I still can do somethng to change if I want to but that will come with the expanse of many other things and not only impact on me but also on those around me..
let fate take me where I should go for now.. let the higher beings guide me along..
River attitude again.. but well, I don't really need the whooha of big waves in life now..
