Thursday, April 29, 2010
~ 8:49 PM ~
Its over... and I'm over too. DEAD. perhaps not now... but i think come 3rd June I'll be.
ER didn't turn out as bad as I thought it will be... i think i can still manage a pass with my talk cock skills... BUT! investment was a KILLER! i think the whole exam hall of pple walk out with the... "I'm going to be dead" face, with all the head shaking... but well... they'll be much more at ease if they saw my more than half empty paper. argh!
I don't want to redo the horrible terrible investment project!!! omg. argh. it will be a miracle if it can pass. wdl wdl wdl lar!!! :( haix.
Good luck to all those out there still studying for exams..
shall wait for my sakae with sw and aunty dear... :) before i si de ming mu ba =X. haha. haix.
when the exams end on such a note.. there's no mood to do anything.
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
~ 1:35 AM ~
keep my prayers going... i need them more than anything for the next 2 days.
i dunno what 29 april will bring. i just hope i'm strong enough to brave through it.
i can already imagine the day...
i'm already feeling scared... for the moment i step into the exam hall, the moment i open the booklet, the moment i'm alone after i step out...
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
~ 1:28 AM ~
argh! think i won't be sleeping well tonight... i feel like i'm having an exam after a long long time... =X this is bad.
and thinking that i'm quite prepared for LM and I'm feeling so shitty... I won't how my night will be on wed with 2 unprepared papers.
and i'm afraid of not waking up tml... lol. activated the whole family to make sure i wake up tml lol.
hope all the ppl whom i use to aid me in memorising the diff type of traits and behaviors, ways of leadership will come appear in my mind inspiring me and prevent any mental blocks. lol. memorising becomes easier when i use sj scenerios in it. lol the kids remind me how to develop teamwork... then there's those traits of a leader... where my fellow officers come to play. haha. hope i'll remember them all tml =P
i just hope that my prayers is the loudest to catch the attention of the almighty(s) up there..
Monday, April 26, 2010
~ 8:00 PM ~
what do you do when you have a paper tml and you've yet to finish it... and feel totally unprepared?
some pple freaked out and keep studying like crazy...
some totally gave up and don't care about it...
for me... my mind somehow goes blank... like wth.
it just don't feel like anything... i stare blankly.. and wonder if the words can move into my brain through osmosis or diffusion or wadever.
i can only believe that what I've read before is in there and they'll come out automatically tomorrow when required.
damn. my mind's blank. argh.
its not even thinking bout the usual stuff i'm always thinking about...
ya... tt's how bad it is... i guess I'm half brain dead right now. lol.
just hope that my prayers work miracles tomorrow.
~ 1:08 AM ~
well.. well.. tt's unexpected.
make me wonder... why today? felt something...?
why come and go..? have i done something wrong?
i won't know... will it change anything? for better or for worse?
is it a once in a blue moon thing or will it becomes more frequent?
idk. what had happened, happened. t.a.b.
so many puzzling things these days... can't figure out the other puzzle too. lol.
but well... i think things are ok.. and tt's good enough :)
studying for me is getting horrible... brain don't seems to be retaining anything. damn. i've not felt so unprepared for uni before... hmmm. did i said tt last sem? lol. if i did... this sem is even worse. argh! horrible terrible incorrigible! bleah.
Saturday, April 24, 2010
~ 3:16 PM ~
不知道，一切又开始动摇了。
习惯就好， 但我想，我永远都无法习惯吧。
读书吧！想这么多也没用...
不是我的人生，我无法掌控。
Friday, April 23, 2010
~ 3:13 AM ~
TIRED! shucks... just by waking a bit earlier for one day I'm so tired...
i wonder on 29 April when I have 2 papers, how do i survive! =X
sleep early... wake up earl tml! slowly tune back body clock so as to ensure that it will work during the day time haha.
just let them pull through this sem argh!
不要去胡乱猜测! 不要去想! 专心!!!
~ 3:09 AM ~
A daily enlightenment... but instead of choosing today's date... I felt Feb 12 enlightenment linked more to me..
February 12
http://www.buddhanet.net/flash/the-daily-enlightenment/index.html
The secret to success is not giving up. Yes, it is that simple. Learn from mistakes and carry on along the new direction found.
You only fail when you give up.
No one tells you, you had failed for good.
Was the Buddha having practised extreme asceticism then a failure? Yes- if He gave up there and then, when He almost died of hunger. But He did not give up- He sought another method and persevered. And He achieved His goal of Enlightenment. And He did not really make any mistakes in His search for the Truth because He learnt from His mistakes. A real mistake would be not learning from one's mistakes.
The greatest mistake one can make is to not dare make mistakes.
Mistakes are all made accidentally but they should be learnt from sincerely-with no regrets or hard feelings. Making mistakes is an inevitable part of the learning process.
Many of life's failures are those who did not realise how close they were to success when they gave up. Success it just a whole bunch of failed attempts plus one final perfect attempt.
If it is worth it, do it-never give up.
Tell yourself- if I should, I shall!
"If it is worth it, do it - never give up". =) shall not be troubled anymore. though things happen and i don't always understand why.. good times we shared always reminded me... They're worth it. lol.
of course there's many things in life worth it too... hopefully i can trust myself to continue working towards them and don't give up too..
lol... 2809's enlightenment is so linked.
The fact that it has the same quote that aunty likes to say.. "Do or not do - there is no TRY." proved it. haha.
I liked 2809's passage... but well... one story a day... leave this for tomorrow. hehe.
and i guessed... 3011 is too complicated... haha. coz its "fill in the blanks - pen your own personal realisation on a blank sheet of paper…" lol. self reflection is the highest stage of enlightenment.
read a few more dates... can't really linked lol. perhaps they read it themselves they'll be able to see the link immediately bah. haha. ok! good nites! :)
Thursday, April 22, 2010
~ 4:54 AM ~
one more night down.
no. I'm not rejoicing.
though its one day nearer till the end of exams, i need more time!
hopefully wadever I'm studying this few days stay in my brain. though i can't actually remember anything from ER le =X
tml starting on investment.. recap my LM...
and i think... i'll just pray hard, very hard, extremely hard for ER =X. haha.
its just too horrible! argh.
lol this shall be my prayer before I sleep on the 26th...
Now I lay me down to study,
I pray I don't go nutty,
And if I fail to learn this junk,
I pray I do not flunk,
And if I die, don't bury me at all,
Just lay my bones in the study hall,
And pile my books upon my chest,
And tell my teachers I did my best,
So now I lay me down to rest,
And pray I pass tomorrow's test,
And if I die before I wake,
That's one less test I'll have to take.
(http://www.c4vct.com/kym/humor/studpray.htm)
oh... anyway... just bury me, i don't wan't to lie in the study hall lar. lol.
but right now i need this i guess...
God, I just need to be able to focus. I need your help to look at this information so I can remember and apply it well on my exam. I need you to help me feel more confident going into the hall and relax a bit so I can concentrate.
Also, God, help me when I walk into the exam. Give me the peace, when it is all said and done, to know that I walked in and did my best. I pray, for your guiding hand as I take the exam, and I ask for your welcome calm when I walk out of the hall after.
(edited to my own context and to what I'm comfortable with)
exams is not only a time to test your knowledge, for students like me... not so good with my work, its also a test of faith. haha. talking crap le... lol.
ok la sleeping time!
hopefully can wake up on time =X yesterday's waking time was OMG! lol.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
~ 4:45 AM ~
ER is horrible =S dry stuff that needs lots of memory space... but before that, lots of readings and getting the fact right.
ok.. i know a large part of it is due to my poor attendance for this mod =X
but... still the progress is much more slower than estimated... bad bad... haix.
went back to LM after finishing the chapter of ER.. LM is such a joy to study after ER haha. Leadership, a lesson that i learn since sec 2? lol. much easier to relate, to memorise. =) but... oh well there's still quite alot to go too. =X
and of coz there's still Investment that i've yet to touch... bad bad... =S
no point saying bad bad here... lol. back to the books before hitting the bed soon... =) Add oil to all the poor peeps studying too... haha. facebook is such interesting during the exams period when friends' status are often related to the horror of mugging lol.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
~ 10:22 PM ~
blog getting meaningless again these days...
lets have some joke of the day before i get back to mugging again...
A businessman called and had a question about the documents he needed in order to fly to China. After a lengthy discussion about passports, I reminded him he needed a visa. "Oh no I don't, I've been to China many times and never had to have one of those." I double checked and sure enough, his stay required a visa. When I told him this he said, "Look, I've been to China four times and every time they have accepted my American Express."
__________________________________________________
Customer: “Hey, can you help me find this book?”
Me: “Sure.”
(He holds up a piece of paper with the title and author of a book on it. I find it on the shelves and hand it to him.)
Customer: “Thanks! How’d you do that so fast?”
Me: “Well, I’ve worked here awhile, and the books are all in alphabetical order by author’s name.”
Customer: “What do you mean?”
Me: “Alphabetical order. Like the alphabet song? You know, A’s before B’s?”
(He looks confused, but then widens his eyes.)
Customer: “The letters actually go in that order? I thought that song was just to remember them all!”
_________________________________________
Customer: “My cable box is broken.”
Me: “What seems to be the issue?”
Customer: “Roughly every 1 minute the channel goes up. I tried turning it off and on, I tried unplugging it, I made sure no one was sitting on the remote, nothing works, you guys gave me a broken box!”
Me: “What does it currently show on the front of the box sir?”
Customer: “Channel 932.”
Me: “And what time is it sir?”
Customer: “9:32. Oh.” *hangs up*
~ 4:39 AM ~
原来，真的就是这样而已...
started late but came home earlier... brain can't take in anymore things le... no point sitting there and stone.
hope tomorrow will be more productive.
first time walking home after my ankle broke...
reminded me why i like walking back home before the first train... :)
tonight the mind go into a blank state... just walk, hum along the songs being played..
let whatever images come and go... walking in a meditative state haha. nice.
take things in stride. can do it. just believe...
anyway... saw this on someone's fb... food for thought.
"Love means to love that which is unlovable, or it is no virtue at all; forgiving means to pardon the unpardonable, or it is no virtue at all; faith means believing the unbelievable, or it is no virtue at all; and to hope means hoping when things are hopeless, or it is no virtue at all.
~ 1:49 AM ~
Its not tt easy...
Tonight scriptures(?) were being repeated over frequently on my mp3 in shuffle mode..
I guess almighty sensed my mind running around and tried to calm it and made me focus ba.. Lol.
No matter how hard.. I must stay focus for this 2 weeks...
T.a.B
P.U.S.H
P!
Monday, April 19, 2010
~ 5:40 AM ~
am glad for a night like this..
been missing it.. tonight i'm blessed.
somethings are just irreplaceable.
one more... and it will be perfect.
but well... like i always say... can't be greedy! lol.
am contented with what i have...
Sunday, April 18, 2010
~ 3:18 AM ~
17th April came and passed. sweat and tears dropped and being wiped...
I thought we'll be able to do it...
didn't really expected it.. especially after seeing them perform for most of the components...
but i've forgotten bout the only component that I didn't see... haix.
Joy for the ambulance, tears for the nursing...
we lost to a junior NY team... 50 marks in home nursing...
a certain nagging feeling there... if only I've insisted more, will they have changed and improved in their ways?
but well... we can't change the result, but hope they learn from it...
Nevertheless, the memories the kids went through, the trainings, knowledge gained will be theirs to stay.
They're a winner to us, to themselves.
A little part of me just wonder... just wondering...
if the results were inverted... what will be the different feeling, atmosphere.
maybe we won't be able to go out for dinner like just now...
i think he won't be able to cover his sadness as good as nc... the rest of won't really matter as they'll all still went home.
i guess she'll be even more disappointed as well... though there's time when I don't see eye to eye bout the unfairness... even today... but I do remember that 人的心是偏一边的... mine included... coz I felt that they're cared less, I cared more... perhaps if things changed I will be less affected as well... I won't noe...
no point talking bout hypothetical stuff la. no matter what... we'll still say Well Done teams! no matter how the heart slant, both teams are still ours... we'll still be happy when they won, be sad when they lost...
not sure what will nfac be this year... if its just a going through of motion, today's Fac might be our one and only full journey FAC. haha. though the result its not perfect... the journey's been great... :) glad that I'm there with them for the last part of the journey. :)
now... its back to studies... I'm DEAD! =(
Saturday, April 17, 2010
~ 2:49 AM ~
Though I'm not the one going for competition, though I'm not always there for them throughout, and I believe I'm not as worried, as nervous as Candy... I'm nervous for them too haha.
Just like what I told Candy just now... this can be said to be our 'first FAC'. FAC canceled when we're a cadet, last year we trained and nanny the NFAC... and it was canceled as well, so this is our First lol.
Nanny-ied the kids, porridge, honey, shoo them to sleep... not sure how much they appreciate it... but we've done what we can. :) these kids... we see them grow. These few months just flew past... soon they'll be graduating le... haha.
Thurs last training in school... last talk with them... somehow it reminded me of nfac in minds cafe... lol. its memories tt bring back smiles too.. tonight while nanny-ing them, was thinking if nfac did happen last year, we'll most prob be doing the same things too. lol.
NFAC 09... we didn't get to see the results of all the effort and sweat, days and nights spent... didn't went through the process of seeing them compete and standing there waiting for the result...
Tomorrow... we go through it... seeing them compete... waiting for the results with them. Though the results of Zone is not as scary, as worrying as Nationals... the feeling will be there too I guess lol.
We've done our best as trainers, I believe the kids will do their Best tomorrow... and God will do the rest. :)
tml will be another first... first time not being in a FAC committee since an officer... haha. I'm a corp officer tml... :)
Friday, April 16, 2010
~ 1:57 AM ~
can't figure out what I'm feeling...
feelings are like rojak, can't differentiate them.
don't even noe if they're good or bad. lol.
seriously hate time like this.
~ 12:41 AM ~
its here finally... and put me in the usual ARGH! mood. and the fact that its exams period. its the fac weekend. and many other things bugging me... I'm in the mood to kill someone.
Should have just stayed out and study lar. RAR!
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
~ 12:35 PM ~
Rar... should or should not?
Take the few hours to continue study or to go down?
though my notes are worrying.. what they still dunno are very worrying too..
by studying harder at night will it be enough to make up for that few hours? by going down to try to teach them more for that few hours will it help them?
there's regrets that I'm not there for a large part of their journey... but will there be another regret if I go?
aiyo! should or should not?
Woke up and saw an email that makes me wonder another Should or Should not?
Find extra work for myself to do, or just ignore and pretend that pple don't ask, i don't care?
Its still within this year so should I do something? or just act blur?
this one... really dunno... shall see how.
Its raining for the past few days .. but there's a drought over my side... Why?
~ 12:10 AM ~
the start of the studying period... a very short one this sem.
perhaps its just the first day... can't really get the momentum. though i think its more of an excuse than anything haha.
though i don't mind studying alone... on good days, I like it in fact.
but quite often will feel the loneliness of studying alone... 有那种很孤独的感觉 haha.
sometimes i'll miss the studying period of the first 2 sem. lol. but I'm contented with what I have right now.. :) can't be too greedy right lol.
haha though actually... I'm quite greedy.. lol. esp when studying gets more and more horrible... i'll hope for those msn ding dongs and calls tt make the mugging less terrible. lol. remind me of one of the night last sem. haha.
RAR! enough of getting off track... shooing back to my notes soon.... =(
having a drought today...
Sunday, April 11, 2010
~ 11:05 PM ~
"Sometimes people build walls not to block others out of their life but to see who cares enough to break through the wall." - Xiang's FB status.
lol. so true. but sometimes pple miscalculated and build their wall so high, so strong that others can't break through it... as a result pple who cares eventually walk away.. and they lost the pple who cares.
so... know break your own wall down when needed... don't be the pighead haha.
hmm.. today's drought occurred later than expected... and not as bad. though its not easy... its not tt hard too.. can be done. life is how we choose to live... :)
Saturday, April 10, 2010
~ 8:17 PM ~
i believe i can do this with practices..
Today's race itself was not a bad one... compared to trifactor its so much better. lol. First tri after my broken ankle... not too bad. But overall, other than the race itself was.... ok la...
while keeping my promises, will learn to move on and enjoy everyday... who knows how long i'll live lol.
when things are happy, be happy and enjoy it.
when things are not tt good, don't be sad...
others are not bothered by it so I shouldn't be too =)
don't think too much, don't have too much hope... then won't be disappointed. :)
but they'll always be the special... anytime, anywhere, anything...
Time to pack everything... and prepare to study le...
hopefully i'll be so hardworking that while I study, will swim and run now and then lol.
s.t.h. :)
~ 1:56 AM ~
If i die tonight... the only regret I have is that I've not written my letter (遗书）to all those who matter... to those who once matter... lol.
no other regrets for myself. sadness yes. but no regrets. coz i believe in life... i've done what I could do at this point of time. those that are not done... are things not possible with my current capabilities/ situation... or it might be things that I will notr dare to do.
there's a list of things we always said to be done before we die... but if i die now... i will have sadness, but no regrets... coz i noe even if u give me one more day, I won't have the money to do all tt stuff lol. Let my friends who came out the list with me together do it for me when they've the ability... if they bring me along in their heart, their memories... I'll be happy in heaven lol.
haha say till as if i'm dying. no, I'm not lar. but who noes...
I can't promise I'll sure walk away from the light if I ever see it one day...
haha but all the above is said right now... won't know will it still be the case when i'm at the brink of death... perhaps then I'll have a whole lot of regrets lol.
~ 12:29 AM ~
i thought the end of this week will be a relief. relaxation before i start studying next week.
i forgotten how things always sux when i've nothing to concentrate on.
Yesterday was all well... project completed, celebrated winda's bday + end of proj with steamboat with group.
Today started well... handed up proj, head to celebrate winda's bday + end of proj again but this time with the whole gang.
All was well till a point during the celebration... guess its when everyone starts to take photos, somehow I just slowly become out of the hype... standing out of the ra-ra, my mind starts to drift and one thing led to another. The afternoon is spoilt.
I thought I shall make my night a better one by dropping by... but well... God got his own plan, it just show me something else.
Today.. a few pple told me several things... they seems like some message higher beings are trying to tell me...
"Life's too short for one to not move on"
"Friendship... is nothing" (in response to a question he asked, and answered himself.)
haha. the second one 挤心 ar... lol he didn't noe that he actually hit the nail. I wonder the person behind felt anything... if tt's heard.
During the celebration... the gang as usual kept taking photos... lots of them...
I felt so pro... in acting happy haha. but eventually when i'm left alone at night... i can't take it...
no more strength to put on the mask. no strength to hang on anymore...
on the way home, thought through many many things... and decided to do so.
but when the last part came when I'm thinking "Today, ___________ marks the day that _________", I can't fill in the blanks. haha. yes I'm weak. I'm the stupid one lar. but I just can't do... lol.
I'll keep to my promise I've made in 2008. but i'll no longer keep hoping for things to happen, 没有希望，就不会有失望...
I just don't understand somethings... and I guessed I never will.
Wednesday, April 07, 2010
~ 11:57 PM ~
counting down to the end of project.
Official Ending time 12pm Friday. Unofficial time 6pm Thurs! =)
though my part is not done =X haha.
Though after the exams have to chiong to study... but the thought of no more proj for this sem is good..
However... i noe during mugging period I might want to do essay instead haha.
~ 1:47 AM ~
i think i'm learning... :)
though i dunno how long it will last lol.
no... i don't have confidence for myself.
nitez off to bed. can't think... don't think..
~ 1:10 AM ~
WIL is unlike investment where I can work with numbers and Excel, and fortunate for me then I'm able to understand the formula faster than the others. But WIL i gotta think of writing nice nice words and paragraphs... =X chui.
Always have problems with starting an essay. I just dunno how to write... and esp group projects when everyone read your work. tt's y i always stare at the essay questions for GP and English for quite sometimes... and eventually now for all my projects. =S
ARGH!
Monday, April 05, 2010
~ 11:46 PM ~
When your own life seems like a nightmare, brings nothing but sadness,
watch drama serials... live in other pple life for that few mins instead.
at least when they're horrible and sad, you'll know that its not true... unlike your own life.
~ 10:18 PM ~
should not have done anything tonight...
now it just end horribly again.
one ran away, the other ran away too.
well well... didn't i foresee that too...
no... actually not...
first one yes, but not the second one.
nothing much i can do..
though perhaps... its all just an excuse.
不想失望，不想难过
但不知为何，眼泪还是掉了
~ 9:56 PM ~
Finally Investment is down... Can't wait for the end of this week... and WIL will be done with..
Mugging time then... though i foresee its going to be a lonely mug-alone sem... hmm. must work hard no matter wad though... after tt will hope for a happy happening holiday bah... haha.
tired. a break for tonight... =)
~ 1:43 PM ~
God has its own way to show that i'm thinking too much... haha.
Well, hope that God's right and I'm wrong bah. lol.
Few more hours till we throw Creative Investment out of our brain... just retain the Investment knowledge for exams :)
Sunday, April 04, 2010
~ 11:18 PM ~
I get use to tools i work with easily... becoming dependent on them. When one of my add-on became faulty online, it just feels that things are not right =S
went to XiuYi's 21st... at Pasir Ris Aloha... lots of ballons... it just reminds me Candy's 21st... and eventually mine.
Those great memories =) no more 21st for us... =S next up we have to wait for xt's 30th le haha. esp since we miss her 21st =X Will we still be staying up late talking bout anything and everything, sleeping till late into the afternoon, squeezing in one bed...? I hope so... =) and maybe there'll be a little boy for us to play with too! haha.
my mind is totally blank... i wonder how am i going to do my work tonight... Argh!
~ 12:22 AM ~
don't don't don't don't don't...
just the thought of it scares me... bybgw! :(
Saturday, April 03, 2010
~ 11:31 PM ~
doing my work... heart not really there.
haix.. bybgw... :(
Friday, April 02, 2010
~ 11:24 PM ~
haha... i like this... "Love is blind; friendship closes its eyes."~ Anonymous
but... actually dun really understand its meaning when think of it more in depth. it just hit me as 'true...' when i first read it. lol. I think it means that friends choose to be 'blinded' and to be with each other? not sure haha.
"The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a true friend who cares. "
~ Henri Nouwen
this quote strikes a chord in me. during such a moment, such an hour... doing things is not the hardest thing, it is to bear with the inability to do anything... just be by their side though not understanding everything.. Though at such time, understanding is not important, cos as friends, we're there to let them know we're always there., to give them the support.. and will always be there for them no matter what...
haha such a simple quote that made me think so much. Good Friday... god showing me some enlightenment ar. haha. nono... i'm not Ah Peng. lol.
long time nv say le... S.A.S.A.T.H. haha :)
S.A.S is no longer a worry cos i believe.
oh... no, lol must pass the third S to aunty to be safe esp while driving! haha.Hmm think sw should keep it for her driving too... lol. hmm... i think my everyday life need it too... :x haha.
but... my TH had been missing these day... there's always something to make me hmm... =S my problem i noe... i always say I'll try... well.. perhaps i'm not trying hard enough lar. lol.
I'll find the missing TH. =)
be T.H too... Truly Happy.
oh 1 more...
"Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art.... It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival. "
~ C.S. Lewis
yes, so true.
~ 10:21 PM ~
Today is...
Good... if I enjoy things simple as it is.
Not so good if I wonder about those little little things...
so... don't. just enjoy things as it is.
Space and Time. Trust and Believe that what's meant to be will be.
as i cross out each day in April, i get closer and closer to the end of the month which will mark the end of this sem. Scary. studying is always a torturous thing that is only made better by those those who matters... a message, a call during those tough nights meant lots lots... only tt they dunno haha. omg. quite horror to think of those nights tt will be here soon soon... haix.
~ 12:43 AM ~
hll... haha.
even walking is not easy. left feet pain, right hip pain.
but... what is pain? haha.
humid night... no cool air. don't feel good =X
oh well... tml's Good Friday... will it be Good?
I'm tired... very tired. these days just by not sleeping for a night can 'kill'. haix..
if its me. then its my bad... then I'm sorry.
or by saying this i'm being 'defiance' by not arguing anymore? aiyo so complicated. haha. today my mind is unable to decipher such complicated issue.haha i think i'm just talking nonsense to myself... ARGH!
perhaps tml i wake up le can see things better...
right now i just dun understand why they like to play see-saw...
kk... prepare to sleep... night. perhaps someone will tell me in my dream...
Thursday, April 01, 2010
~ 10:46 PM ~
mentally and physically tired. and the day didn't end so well. I just hope that tml will be a better day.
those who meant nothing to you won't affect you in anyway.
those whom you hold close and dear can so easily brings smile and strength, and at the same time they can bring worries and sadness so easily. and such things will never get use to it de.
我承认每次说 “习惯就好” 是自我安慰罢了。
go out walk walk... feel like running but my ankle hurts... need the night cool air to clear my mind...
bye. sbd,yqyjbhll.
