phew at last... have problems publishing since yesterday... so suddenly you'll see lots of entries =P

Let's see... After some complicated issues, can go prom after all coz uncle called yesterday to say that they've found a replacement. Haiz suddenly I feel like going genting instead of prom... but when I have to go to gentings I'm wanting to go prom. Lolz that's me... indecisive. But at least now don't need trouble to think about how am i going to sell the prom tickets. One prob down at least. =)

Hmm... if you are a yes 93.3 listener, you'll know who's lingzhi... the dj who host ying yue ri ji. Well she left 93.3 on Friday. Think she's quite good, one of my fav dj bah. She's been in this job for 9 or 10 yrs. Well I wonder when I enter the working society will I be often changing jobs or I won't have the courage to change jobs. Well you should know I get attach to small nitty gritty things easily, so I think to make me change a job, esp if I've been there for such a long time will take me lots and lots of courage. Anyway other than ying yue ri ji, she hosted 2300 ji mo you ren pei when we're in sec 4 till march 2005. So during O level mugging period was always listening to it. Then when this shows end in march, its the period when we're choosing JC/Poly, people coming in, people leaving. Then the last night of the show lingzhi made it a sad sad atmosphere, while listening to it, I'm writing in my diary, I remember lots of emotions running through me. I'm going through some hard time then...Then I remember thinking Lingzhi most prob leaving soon le... 1 yr later or so... (I wrote it in my diary somemore lor) so on thurs on my way to school in the morning I'm listening on my mp3 93.3's morning show, jiu shi wan ren mi hosted by lingzhi, mary and zhiyong. Been listening to the morning show on my way to school since lingzhi and zhuyong hosted it. Then heard the news that she's leaving. Shock arh. My prediction 1 yr ago came true... scary. No lar just think I'm much more observant. Did some blog hoping yesterday night. Then see quite a few blog about Lingzhi leaving 93.3 then a few said something like they think she's leaving when ying yue ri ji ended in aug. But woot I think of it last year lor! Haha. Then on Fri is her last show... then I got tutition in that morning. Set alarm to wake up early to listen to the show. BUT! by the time I wake up I've rush to tuition then forget till half way through tuition which is at 10 plus le! show ended at 10... =S But read on pple's blog its a sad session. Then one blog lame lar write "Sky down no no dismiss party" -_-. On thurs when lingzhi said she leaving, she said "xiu xi shi yao zao gen chang de lu" (to rest is to go futher - erm direct translate lar), then zhiyong still lame he said "Oh so you don't want be dj, want go be marathon runner arh" Pengz.

That day posted something about being famous. Perhaps lingzhi, being a dj is a small kind of famous. Not everyone know her, but in Singapore, you say her name, someone will still know who she is... And to jin's tag, what these people have left when they give so much to the public... perhaps the popularity, the famous life filled up what they gave... that's the way of life. You lost something, you gain something. Lolz sounds like the mock GP essay that I've done "Progress always comes with a price" Do you agree? lolz.

Purpose of this entry? Unknown. To watse time. sianz. Byez mug ba da jia!

Argh can't publish again! 0_0

Ok trying out...

You scored as Psychology. You should be a Psychology major!

What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3)
created with QuizFarm.com

The previous entry had some problem showing then i thought is the quiz thing... so delete and redo... delete and realise still have error -_-. Redo the quiz... result abit change sia...

Previously psychology was 92% second round 100% sia! lolz. Sociology and Philosophy move up to 3rd and 4th. 2nd still language though. The rest not much changes though... lolz... hopefully this can be posted

Haha... First and last quite expected. Psychology =) If only I can get in lar. GP must be good and heard that its not that easy also lor. Haha... I'll continue hoping bah. Chemistry last... haha if not it then what lor. =P But English as my second major?! haha I think its language then it should be Chinese. Think much more possible. And I've actually thought of it... see how bah... Engineering! Haha lolz never even think of it before leh. Not my cup of tea... must be wrong interpretation somewhere. =P Anthropology... didn't really know what it means till I check dictionary.com. Hmm sounds interesting... but what will you work as after that?! Can earn enough money to feed myself? Haha. Next up will be philosophy, sociology. Philosophy... I think I'm quite philosophical like to discuss such things. But do it for life? I think I'll crap more and more. Haha. Come out with nonsensical theories arh. Sociolgy. Think of it before... still thinking. =P Journalism. Erm chinese media one lar. Won't be able to make it to the English side. lolz. Like the job of a DJ. Under journalism? Hmm...

But all these above will only be possible if I pass my A's... =S

Was listening to Andy Lau on air and watching him on the yes 933 website webcam. Then watched Beckham's videoclip on U tube... linked from Jin's blog. Haha.

Andy Lau. Never really pay lots of attention to him though I think he's quite good. Then sec 3 Xinyu so crazy bout him then Wu Jian Dao! =) Then take more notice of him. He's really outstanding. Recently he's voted the most popular singer by 2 generations. Our parent generation and our generation. Cool arh. Sing for 20 yrs le still so popular. And he not only sing, he act, he's friendly not proud and etc. bah... haha. Well he's here course of the GCMA ( Global Chinese Music Awards - I think tt wad it stands for bah haha.), will like to go if not having A's and have someone accompany lor. Coz its a global thing so is like the prominent chinese radio stations will take turn to organise this event then this time is Singapore lor. So think quite nan de.. but well no $ and of coz its the wrong time now lar.

Then the videoclips on U-tube showing Becks' life. Well. Think quite interesting. Ok maybe biase view since I like Beckham to a certain extent. Tonight I feel that he seems like someone I once know... yes I see someone in him.haha.

A common point between the two people I talk about here tonight. They're both celebrity. And I think, Once you choose to be famous, your life is no longer yours. It belongs to all others out there. All actions of yours will be viewed and critise by others. I like the Starhub slogan for World Cup 06. Haha but I forget wad le -_- jin can remember anot arh? However being famous, a prominent figure in the world is still the dream of many out there. Sometimes I would wonder as well... "How will it be to be so famous?" Haha maybe not so famous but at least you say the name, people in the country, people in the same realm will go "orh...". A sportsman? A DJ? Well we never know what tomorrow might bring right =P haha dream on lar.

Its getting nonsensical... and no wonder coz its 1.15am le. Its proven that I can't think straight with a half asleep mind. and yet that the state of my mind in many GP Paper 2 -_- hopefully it won't be the case on the Thurs next week. =S

Ok a fast one... to prevent my blog from rotting. Yesterday blog a long one but browser suddenly closes by itself so... duh. Anyway yesterday's entry was about how we should appreciating the small small things in life, the blue blue sky, beauty of buildings and etc, then blog about the poor taxi service in Singapore, how we are working a 'good quality service' yet this is the image we portray to foreigers. Yar this is a summary =P.

Read my past entries few days ago... haiz. All memories. I miss those days but I don't envy those who are going through it now cause I've went through it and experience it... so I've no reason to envy them... haha chim hor... but not my thoughts to be exact. Quoted part of it from 'Tuesday with Morrie’ Quite right lar.

I really miss shooting lots. My gun. 5/7 the day I bid goodbye to it and not seen it since then. Never even step to the range after it lar. I really miss it lots. Not even sure if I have the chance to shot again. Only if I get into uni.... I dreamt of shooting yesterday. A nice nice dream. Dreamt that we're cleaning the range. Then we shoot. Then my result very bad. Then coach say "Never mind after A level we train hard again... =)" I want my dream to come true. Study hard bah...

1 more week. 1 more week. I'm afraid. I only seems to know all the rudimentary stuff that won't bring me far. I want to be steeped with knowledge. How I wish the remaining one week is interminable though studying is a drudgery, I won't mind if I can have more time. Why I'm not adroit in memorising stuff, if I am, it wil enhance my learning so much. Can I cajole someone to give me some of their memory space? Or can I accost an examiner, badger him or her to 'help' me during exam? Haha I know this is impossible. At least the annals of major exam in Singapore do not have such sitution before. I'm just a mudane girl, yet I've to go through this process known as "examinations" a euphemism for mental tortue and abuse. However, this is inevitable. It has been stipulated in the unofficial rules and regulation booklet for living in the world that only those who mangaed to face these challenges intrepidly will be able to succeed in life. Those hapless souls who failed to do so will then live in a diffrent realm from others. How paradoxical that one's future depends on these examinations we have.

Haha. Been trying to improve my vocab so throw in as many words as I can that I've learn in this 2 days. Not sure if I've used it in the proper way.. but the meaning is there. Well... can check out the meanings... coz the book I'm reading is recommended to the GP support group pple in our school. 1100 words. Suppose to be 5 words per day then everything to be learn in 42 weeks... then by the time they recommend them, the support group pple is told to learn 1 week per day. Though i not in the support group, I know of this thing but lazy to study... then only yesterday go borrow it to read. Haha... only at 3rd week lor -_- Hugging buddha leg arh... (l临时抱佛脚）

byez peeps =)

Many times, many of us seems to get lost in life. Too bad there's no map for life. If I could actually get hold of something like that I'll be rich!

I'm one with quite a bad sense of direction. Getting lost is common, therefore I tend to walk less walked routes, and also longer routes than others. It doesn't matters as long as I reached my destination. Well it also helps that I'm one who's quite adventurous =P (I claim lar) so when I get lost, I'm more interested than fustrated, unless I'm rushing for time.

However in reality, we don't really have much time to appreciate the surroundings when we get lost. If you stay off track for too long, you'll be left behind. Yes life is beautiful, but the hard true is that we don't have the luxury to discover its beauty. At least not for most of us.

I'm one who often get lost and have no sense of direction in life. And I'm one who will get lost and stuck there, or going a longer route to reach my destination. Therefore I need things to give me some pointers to where should I go. And these things are my favourite companions - books.

I know now is not the time to read books nor recommend, but sometimes I just study till the point of saturation when I just feel like hmm... then I'll just get a book... esp those inspirational books. (currently reading "Tuesday with Morrie" quite nice. Highly recommend Lisa Wingate's Good Hope Road and etc.) They provide me a serene (lolz remind me of ms ow) feeling. Even though I might not have a clear sense of direction after that, I just feel better, that life... is not so bad. lolz so similar to GP Mock today. VJ 06 prelim. Hope and action. Interesting passage. But braindead then. Can't process. Haiz.

tt's all folks.

Haiz think Innova's fengshui no good lar. lolz Seen the doc twice in this 2 yrs while in zhss I don't think I've been so sick that need to see doc. Don't like seeing doc lor, most sickness can get well eventually see doc watse $ lor. But went to the doc yesterday... Actually its not that serious, just a very bad flu, but there's no more medicine at home and exams coming le should try to get well soon. So just go see doc lor.

And interestingly doc take my temperature and its 38.3 degree. lolz didn't even know I'm having fever. -_- Feeling feverish but at home take temperature just 37.5 still normal range... right? And am feeling ok... but doc say fever then fever lor. lolz. Either my thermomether spoil, his thermometer spoil or my body temp faulty lar. =P Hate taking fever medicine! Panadol included. =X So big and bitter! haha still got mc till thurs but no school anyway lor. Then tomorrow mock GP need to go lar. GP so bad le... Haiz.

Had a bad dream today or yesterday, not sure. Just remember that I got horrible grades. Haiz. Life just goes on... Work hard ba...

Today's mark the end of our 12 yrs of official education. I put official since we still having extra lessons, exams and all that, so its not yet a final end.

The graduation ceremony is quite a disappointment. But the videoclip is great. Especially our 3 teachers... =) They're cute... lolz. Think the best part of the ceremony excluding the video will be 05 councillor president Ian's speech. And our own programme after the ceremony, is much better. Perhaps the last time we sit in a classroom giving gifts to our teachers and the giving us.

Gave Mr Ang a humongous Doraemon. He requested for it lar... but its most probably the last gift from us... also hope to give him something that he loves. A vase of flowers from Ms Lee... special deliverly to the school lor. So the time we give her its still fresh. =) Ms Tan a necklace with her name. Ms Nathan a big big candle.

Mr Ang in return gave us each something and a book or cards. For the books/cards we played some gift xchange game before getting the gifts. Fun. And Ms Lee was there to help us open the gift and lolz she's just as excited to see what we get lor. Our 3 teachers just seems like kids like us outside lessons. And I'm thankful for having such 3 loving, caring, kind and determine teachers.

After that is class hanging out time. =) Seoul Garden at CWP, then programme next is pool or bowl. So planned to go Yio Chu Kang grassroot, in the end the bowl there renovating -_- so in the end went town. Oh yar, after Seoul Garden, suddenly we started being lame and change our bags with each other and call each other the name of the bag owner. Ok I know childish lar... but its hilarious. =D Silly lor.

Bowled. Wah rusty till really really bad. Only the last few balls improved. Feels like bowling le, didn't play pool though... and was very tempted as well! After A's bah... like qq said, few weeks of tough time, few months of freedom!

This few weeks... do wadever that can be done bah... haiz. Lessons tomorrow... physics.... and its open house lor. -_- but not bad coz I want see open house also. =) Byez.

jin scolded me for not blogging. =X lolz, not that I'm unhappy though, 'coz it means some one cares. =)

Life's been scary? Everyday's like a rollercoaster ride, there's high and low, 360 degree turn, and things passed by so fast that it seems blurred. Many days late at night, I'll lie on my bed and was unsure what I've accomplished each day, often I felt I'm just going through life with no purpose in mind. Mood swings are frequent these few weeks. One moment, life is still wonderful, there's always still some hope; next second, everything seems to be hopeless, it feels as if I've fell into a deep deep pit that I'll never be able to climb up.

But well I'm use to it, and I'm determine to ensure it don't affect me... so it don't. =) Read a fiction about some tough tough military training for the best of the elite. And one thing the trainer said is, "You gotta want it badly enough" Perhaps I have not want it bad enough. 3 more weeks, if I want it bad enough, will it makes a diffrent?

At times I just feel like running away from everything and Jay's 《世界末日》 " ... 全世界好像只有我疲惫.." But at the same moment I'll remind myself of 《当你孤单你会想起谁》 "... 而孤单的滋味谁都会理解，不只是你我会感觉到疲惫..." Everyone is working hard, everyone is tired, though not everyone will get through, don't deprive yourself of that chance.

Many people had said 2 years in JC will be gone very fast. Remember, last year, I've been hoping JC be over soon, I don't like the life. But graduation in few days time, I just hope to go back to those days. Then I shoot (I really miss shooting lots lots lots), I get so busy over m45 stuff, going for SJ meetings now and then, of course there's the big headache PW. These memories.... I'll not exchange it for anything. I always believe that in life everything happens for some purpose. Then I don't see it, now I treasure it. Currently, life seems to be horrible, perhaps one day I'll eventually see the light... =)

I love my life. Without any part of it, I won't be who I am today.

Jiayou ba da jia!!!