Today is 'Hong Grumpy Day'. Its one of those days where everything seems wrong. And I just want to stone and do nothing. Didn't even went out to buy breakfast/lunch. Didn't ate anything till mom came back at about 5.45pm. Just browsing the net aimlessly the whole time since I woke up at about 11 am this morning.
Thinking whether to go Bugis to meet Jes and Zoe. Then mom came back with her pissed off mood on. Irritated. Gave up wanting to go out. Told Zoe and Jes and they decided to make me guilty by daoing me. Blah smelly darl darl monster and granddaughter. Always bully me only! =( =P
And to prevent snapping at others when they get into my way, I better just stay in my room and stone.
Well well what a Great Day!
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
~ 12:17 AM ~
"Card Expired" That's what is shown on the ticket machine at the MRT station when I taped my Ezlink card that have been with me since 2001. Found out that it had expired on 30th Jun. I'm no longer able to use it. That brings me back to the reality once more that I'm no longer a student. Life's starting a new chapter once again.
For others at least... me? I'm still wondering aimlessly. A student I'm not. A undergrad I'm not. Part of the working force, nope. Those entering uni are beginning their life once again. Camps, orientation, preparation. Not for me. Part of me is afraid. Very. Not going to share the same experiences as those around me, going to be in a diffrent 'world' from them, am I going to be awkard strangers with them in future? I really hope not. But somehow I kept thinking of the example Ms Lee gave to encourage us to work hard from uni in J2. She told us about how her class gathering where those who went to uni and those who dropout/didn't make it are segregated unintentionally as they're just too diffrent.
Well my final aim is still get into uni despite my detour but its still going to be diffrent isn't it...
Well well... I'm not going to think about what's others going to think, what I'm going to feel 'coz right now I don't have the luxury. I'm only on a 1 way street. 1 direction and that's forward. I'll still reach the same final destination. I only need a longer time.
And I believed on the way I'll still see the signs and encouragements of my friends to tell me that they're not too far ahead waiting for me to catch up. =)
Starting on a new template. On it will be this: I'm holding on. I'm still fighting. I'm Hong. And that explains it all.
