i dunno i dunno i dunno....
dunno how to move on
dunno how to heck care
dunno how not to be bothered.

Dunno Dunno Dunno
no longer know what i'm doing in life.
no longer know what i'm studying

i want runaway runaway runaway.
away from this senseless things
away from others
away from myself right now.

if studies aren't enough to drive me crazy.
the rest of the things will.

to be sasath is just so hard.

I believe in fate, in destiny tt's things in life are often planned not by us but by some forces up there. Yes we have the choice to choose otherwise, but well... it might just led you to another 'storyline' planned.

Its just like those storybooks with multiple ending... you reached till the end of the page, then you choose a choice and then turn to that page. The story will then continue till you have another option to choose.

How else can I explain many things that happen...

lol doesnt' matter... tt's y i always believe... just do the best I can... the rest perhaps we'll just leave to the story writers... sometimes listen to the little voice in your head. what others do is many times beyond our control. we can persuade, we can talk... but tt's about all. they are having a story on their own, ultimately they made the final choice. just be there and hopes that your presence will make things better...
sometimes it hurts...

live with it... continue turning the book...

Tonight, I experienced weird things on my laptop. haha the screen keeps blacking out, flicker.. then appear back again. haha horror movie effect.
Tonight, I felt cold, adjusted the aircon, and i felt hot. rar y isn't there a mid temperature between tt two.
Tonight, I smiled and saw smiles, and others too. I can't really figure out, yet I seems to detect, seems to know. at least I thought so. perhaps not.
Tonight, I am hungry, ate too fast, and now my tummy hurts. Oh well.
Tonight I am unsure if my com, my msn, my phone are all having probs again. lol. technology.
Tonight, I reminded myself. To remember what I always say.
Tonight, I wondered too much. should just go to sleep right now. haha.
Tonight, I blogged a senseless entry. to others. not to me.
Now, I wonder.... anyone understand? haha

be blessed.

tues night/ wed morning... finally force myself to sit at starbucks and studied till 2am before walking home.

Walk home alone. Few pple around. Less cars. Minus the noise.
Feel the night. Breath in the night air. Yes its different from the day.
Listen to mp3s. Thoughts. Memories. Nice songs with meaningful lyrics.
some songs ya...

Someone's watching over me - Hillary Duff
I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

We are one - Westlife
One very special moment,
can turn a destiny,
And what some would say,
could never change,
has changed for you and me

All of the fear
and all of the lies are, (the lies)
not hard to overcome, (no no)
It's all in the way you look at it,
that makes you strong

One moment in time,
is all the time we need,
Just to make a difference,
to make it better for you and for me,
If you just believe

We will get there - Stefanie Sun
Deep in my heard I just know
Right from the start we will grow
Look where we are, we've come so far
And there's still a long long way to go

High - Lighthouse family
When youre close to tears remember
Some day itll all be over

And at
The end of the day
We'll remember the days
We were close to the edge
And we'll wonder how we made it through
And at
The end of the day
We'll remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
We'll remember it was me and you

Better Man - Robbie Williams
As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience
'Cause it's not my fault
I know I've been taught
To take the blame

You've got a friend - Mcfly
When you're down and troubled
And you need a helping hand
And nothing, whoa nothing is going right.
Close your eyes and think of me
And soon I will be there
To brighten up even your darkest nights.

You just call out my name,
And you know whereever I am
Ill come running, oh yeah baby
To see you again.
Winter, spring, summer, or fall,
All you have to do is call
And Ill be there, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Youve got a friend.

If the sky above you
Should turn dark and full of clouds
And that old north wind should begin to blow
Keep your head together and call my name out loud
And soon I will be knocking upon your door.

Graduation (Friends Forever) - Vitamin C
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

haha i just keep copy and pasting the lyrics... became such a long list... shall stop now... though there's so many more... next time perhaps...

When everything doesn't seems to go right, believe and trust. Don't harp on the bad days. Think of the good ones...
Don't always just look ahead or look back... sometimes just reach out to the side, take a look, your friends might just be there...
When promises are not kept, pple prioritize things differently... understand and forgive that its no ones fault... it just tt everyone's priority in life is different... promises, trust might be of a different meaning to them.
When everything don't work... haha just go to sleep... wake up and be strong again!
haha.... =)
omg... talking to myself more often these days haha

life's boring these days.
its just a routine of sleep eat study, surf some net, sleep and then the cycle continues...

no motivation....
during the study period last 2 sem... at least it seems to be mugging for exams...
while now... just seems to be doing normal daily revision... no sense of urgency... no 'want' factor. need to get the feel soon.... just 2 more weeks left.

dunno issit coz... well doesn't matter...
everything, everyone is changing constantly.
The only constant is change.

Mug Hard pple!!!! I want to runaway sooon sooooon sooooooon!

need to change some parts of myself back to the past... for the better.

let it go~ let it go~ let it go~
be contented with what I have...
知足常乐

tired tired tired.... stupid z monster always come find me =X

finally get back to studies after 1 week break... (self proclaimed =X)
exams are just so near... scary. don't really noe wad I'm studying... just reading through the notes. hopefully somethings get in.
tests results had been not too bad so far... hopefully can pull my gpa up a bit this sem... but haiz... doesn't seems easy. well just gotta try... just lucky i'm not studying alone... got pple to suffer with me heehee. =P

Holding on till the day I could no longer do so... yup... bury the emo-ness. let it go~ let it go~ the same old saying... "what's meant to be will be...." esp tt's wad I've once prayed for... its just my prayers coming true... in a less expected way...

my blog is boring... haha. seems to be the same things over and over again... lol. no tian fen in writing... no tian fen in expressing... haha only noe... "ok ma?"... =P i think its really a good description... and i think... we all got link ba. lol.
anyway there's also part of "ok ma?" instead of "are you ok?" in candy bah... right aunty... haha so random =X

omg 1am... i think i'm going to talk nonsense again le...
gotta shoo myself... haha bye!

hmm... so fast. time pass so fast. been so busy since last blogged. chiong finish my proj. chiong for aunty's guestbook... then chiong for my sleep. a happening week. loaded more memories into my personal hard disk. good ones... bad ones... it doesn't matters... all part of me. its how we choose to see it anyway. we're all directors of our own life. a happy or sad movie depends on us. make it a happy one then... 大家开心就好！xgjh. no matter wad i treasure them all. coz no memories can be repeated. coz its special... just for us.

i'm typing nonsense already... i'm a confuse girl these days. haiz. dunno. keep thinking 时辰已到... haha see signs and symptoms. well... more like i anyhow think of signs and symptoms lar... lol. okok better sign myself out rather than here wasting my time typing and others pple time reading.... if there's anyone out there...
random random...

喜欢走在雨中的时候， 泪水与雨水一起下， 没人知
喜欢跑步的时候，泪水与汗水一起流，没人知
喜欢游泳的时候，泪水混在池水中， 没人知
喜欢冲凉的时候，泪水地下就冲掉，没人知

就是喜欢偷偷的掉泪，没人知
总是伪装着笑脸，忍着泪水，真的好累
人总有崩溃的时候，偷偷的掉泪, 没人知, 也不是罪
擦干泪， 吸口气， 再次面美好的人生！

Tears are the safety valve of the heart.
my heart must be very weak these days =X
good nitez.