omg... i'm really tired when typing the last post... lolz
I don't remember typing some of the last few sentences... =X haha lucky tt there's nothing that i need to delete...
amazingly the sentences still flow somehow... lol
and of coz aunty being alert realise the first word already being a typo haha... perhaps i sub conciously want it to be end of july soon... so everyone starts school as well!!! hehee... =P
Thursday, June 25, 2009
~ 1:52 AM ~
july ending soon.... sch starting... horrible
1 yr tt i've given myself is up... shall work doubly triply hard....
somehow... somethings just bug at me these days.... can't pinpoint as well... haiz.
we're somehow at the mid yr of 2009... as i looked back.... tonight was looking at my docs and files... look through old saved msn and smses... as i read through... things replayed in my mind... 09 had not been good till now... mid march... tt occupies much of wad i've been reading just now... it seems so long ago... this june some acts draw relevant to those in march...
then chionging for exams, projects, and everything... release of horrible result.. haiz... don't feel good... worry even more...
emo emo... haiz... damn tired... dunno wad i'm typing lol... lack of sleep... i shall go sleep lar... tml i shall read through and see if i'll be able to link my own paragraph lar... =P see those reading can link anot as well....~ lol
Thursday, June 04, 2009
~ 3:03 PM ~
damn it... its really damn it... haiz
its a dream come true man... bad dream
Wednesday, June 03, 2009
~ 3:31 PM ~
well well... self-inflicting fan nao zhen.... signs and symptoms sifnz - emo, lost, lots of thoughts in the mind, more impt... dunno why are u fn bout these things! possible cause - too much time at hand, its in the genes.
was told that the results will be out tml... but yet to received any post bout it... really really not anticipating it...
other things.... i dunno.... just refer to the signs and symptoms above...
sometimes.... i felt that i'm blessed, sometimes... i noe i must be contented with wad i have but many times some small things might happen and make me doubt everything once again...
if i've the courage to let go of everything and just run away from this life... my theory - if you've the courage to die, then choose to just let everything go and get away from this life... and continue living...
life is too precious to throw it away... by dying, i think you're mocking all those who are fighting to live all over the world...
if such a day ever come for me to have such courage... most prob i'll fly to somewhere and settle down... when life become more bearable.. perhaps then i'll get back in touch with pple... i believed most ppl might not understand and accept why.... but i think they'll be more thankful that you continued to live and runaway than just ending your life... at least i think tt way... been there, went through it...
as i sometimes see the simple joy of others... how i hope things are so simple for me as well.... though well i noe... we never see the complicated life of others.... it might be worse than mine...
to trust and believe is not easy... to be sasah is even harder.... life is a tough game
