on the journey back home, decided to buy milk tea home and get down to work after a nap..
as I was mixing the drink, the familiar feeling of that place came to me.. the feel of studying came as well.. lol.
ended sitting there and finish my reading.
坐在那里读书，那么熟悉的感觉，但也知道那只不过是过去。

just now bro watching some video and heard the song '萤火虫', such an old school song.. lol
everytime i hear this song, the scene of zhss 90th anniversary night came into mind..

remembered how zhss was beautifully light up tt night.. when we walked out of school.. and somehow being mesmerised and walk back in.. haha. can't really remembered who's there.. jin, weiteng and ahma i guessed.. lol silly young us then. sitting at the benches just outside classroom block.. randomly singing songs that came into mind.. '萤火虫' was one of them..    

tt's almost 10 years ago! haha. 2001, we're still in sec 1. next year zhss is celebrating 100th anniversary le!
haha.. 一转眼 from the sec 1 kids.. by next year all of us will have grad le! oops other than aaron bah.. haha. Darldarl first to grad from crappers ba.. tml, Aunty, Toot and Qiuz will have their convocation.. and join Jes to be no longer students.. lol. oh.. i guess mazi as well.

How time pass..
from somewhere..
"小王子：开心是弓箭，痛苦是乌龟。我问为甚麽？他说因为痛苦向乌龟爬的很慢很慢，快乐却像箭咻一下就过了。"

the horrible uneasy feeling.. :S
haix..

saw this picture on a friend's facebook... attached to his note.
his notes tend to be those emo meaningful type..

clicked in to take a look since it appeared on the news feed.
and realise why all these emo meaningful notes..

apparently he's having some heart problem and gotta go for an op. in his words '"in layman terms? cut open chest, stop heart, work on heart, restart heart, close chest. TADA!"

not a very close friend.. ij shooting club pistol captain..
very thin guy.. but never thought he got such problems..

read through his other notes.. some dilemma now and then, some farewell notes, some 'if i survive' notes.. wow..
the notes hit something close to me..
hope everything goes well for him ba :)

just another reminder that life's.. like this..




 On this day of your life, Hong Jin, we believe God wants you to know ... that all is well. 
All is going according to plan. Trust that there is a bigger picture. Trust that life is unfolding as it should. 
well.. if the application say so... i'll trust and believe ya.. haha.

where's my superheroes.. batman and superman...
i'm heavy.. i need both to catch me if i fall.. lol.

26 July.. remembered what's the significance of it? lol.
i didn't till i saw something while looking through stuff..
the day we went yo ar yo at ecp.. and know that there's no fa kits haha.
the day to remember.. tt's life.
1 year le.. so fast.. yet so much things had change..

home going to be only me and bro for the next few days..
mummy and papa abandoning us at home and go holiday! bleah haha.
somehow reminded me of tt time they went overseas without us..
tt's the first time did night cycling not for event or wad.. just cycling at night on our own.. bringing back the bikes from hq back home.. and tt's the first time cycling on road.. haha.
 memories ba..

i always thought it won't matter anymore.. but i'm always proved wrong.
i guess.. the impact will only get more bearable.. but it'll always be there..
cos they will always matter..

work is not progressing.. :(
no one to ARGH! and RAR! as well.. lol.
seems to be losing everything...

hmmm..... seriously hate 2010! haiz. :(

what i can only say is.. 'oh well'. lol. fail again.
but well even though i know it had failed, close 1 eye, 2 eyes and the third haha.

how things had change..
things that once affect me alot, no longer have that much of an impact.. haha.
already accept it that tt's how somethings are always gonna be.
and i'll always close 3 eyes to them for them eventually lol.

so much for the turning back the body clock.. =/
still as crap. laid on bed the whole night yesterday unable to really sleep till the first train.. argh.
and while lying on bed.. was drifting in and out of sleep.. 半梦半醒..
guess tt's when the brain sort out all the clattered stuff in the mind.. just like how disk defragment works on com.. haha.
and suddenly something jolt me awake.. my brain subconsciously solved the 'code'. lol. i'm amazed. i'm not even thinking bout it. not the whole thing.. but the main gist of it bah..
我果然太天真lol. should have known.. its quite obvious.. lol. perhaps tonight sleep will have some enlightenment again haha.

today while doing the 'stoning' duty, tried reading EG essential readings.. only finish like 1 article -_-'
3 projects.. argh! wdl wdl zmb zmb! =S
haha 2 more free tshirts for today. last time do duty got free shirt was.. ecp. lol. collected shirts from all unis haha. nus, ntu, smu, sim.

hmm.. seems to be getting worse.. starting to get noticed.. bad. =/
sasath hong :)

i've typed a whole chunk of stuff.. in the end just saved in as draft.
the chunk of things won't make sense to others..
even those its meant for might not understand.. lol.
doesn't matters anyway.

things posted be it blogs, facebook or even msn... are meant to be known to those it is meant to be..
ok sometimes its indeed random lol. but other times its a way of communication..

there's also many things that will never be posted.. those things that are meant to be kept..

rar! lol i'm typing a whole chunk of things that doesn't make sense again! lol. later i'm going to end up with so many drafts lol. let me just stop.


its up to others to judge, its up to ourselves to know what's true.
what others see is often what we want them to see, only those who get close enough will see the true self beneath the mask. drifting too far away.. no longer close enough to see..

today, finally dragged myself out of bed for the first morning lesson.
yesterday's panadol though awful.. does help. lol.


but thurs is horrible with 2 consecutive lessons, first lesson was not too bad.. by second lesson, was barely keeping awake.. not that its boring though.. just tt long hours.. haha.

when the lesson starts to get dry or when i'm getting restless.. out of habit will keep taking out the phone to find support to get me through.. talk cock.. 'scream that I want to sleep le!'..
but habits gotta change according to circumstances ya..


but well... guess someone up there heard me and send someone over..
somehow i'm thankful that I'm not left alone..

they will never ever know how much...

hmm,
23rd le. 22nd's gone. don't feel good.. but i guess if i did.. it won't feel good too.. coz either way, I won't know if its the 'right' way. 

haha been very random.. tired le.. make myself stay out and not come home for naps again. haha. need to turn the body clock back.. though i can foresee staying up late to chiong for assignment very very soon.. 3 assignments due on 1 day..! wth. known today and due on 19 aug.. less than 1 month. Argh!

nuaaubf nt vwarwar... cwet nyxg. :(

i hate taking panadols :(
i dislike the batch of panadol extra at my home even more..

but when drinking bottle and bottleS of water doesn't help preventing me from 忽冷忽热.. i know when i have to take panadol..
preventive measures to prevent worsening.. cos seeing the doctors will result in more pills.. i can just imagine the gigantic antibiotics =/

haiz.

"也许我太过天真, 以为奇迹会发生" lol. this lyrics is stuck in my head and keep replaying.. 
天真与愚蠢，不过就是一线之差。 

nap after eating piriton and woke up feeling worse.. =S
just the thought of having to squeeze on trains and bus to get to school tml morning... Argh! :(

总在生病时，才不得向自己承认，自己并没有那么的坚强。

argh..! nose went running today.. lol.
house is filled with the flu bug these few days.. first papa, then bro.. today my turn -_-
my supply of piriton is almost finished by them.. haha.
i'm still telling them yest "Aiyo! you all eat finish my medication. though my nose very long nv run le"
haha. and everytime i'm thinking very long didn't have runny nose le.. without fail the next few days it will start running. The efficiency of my nose. =/

unable to sleep yesterday night.. turn and toss and i gave up trying to make myself sleep. just lie down there and look at whatever runs through my mind.
the combination of lack of sleep, runny nose, freezing cold lecture hall.. bad bad. haiz.

hmm. i shouldn't be affected anymore.. tt's what i always tell myself.
but i always can't do it.. can't help but wonder...
where are they? are they the only one removed? are the rest still in place? or are they all gone too...?
i dunno.. and might never ever know.

22nd coming le.. more or less decided..
i doubt it meant anything.. i shouldn't keep thinking it still does ba..
hmm.

'God always answers our prayers; But sometimes the answer is No.' - Pravs World.
lol. ya.. if 2 parties prayed for the same thing but of 2 direct opposite results.. God can't gave both what they prayed for ya..  The only thing we can do then is to believe and have faith that.. that's the best choice.
tt's the only thing i can do.. cos I felt that the answer was 'No' this time round.. at least for now..

just now walk past bro's room, he asked 'want to play this?

 

lol, retro stuff..when we're young tt's our entertainment at ahma's house.. 10cents for two at the mama shop below the block.. together we'll also buy some snacks that's like 10cents, 20cents only. we'll have all sorts of competition, blowing the biggest bubble, the bubble tt last the longest, most creative design.. and the list goes on..
xiao gu always won the biggest bubble.. using one whole tube to blow a big big bubble.. haha.

we're like saying.. give hanjie and hongrui this thingy now.. they won't know what to do with it anymore.. years down the road, our kids won't even know that such things exist lol. we're getting old =X haha.

played with it.. randomly blow a few bubbles and stick them together... and decided to make a snowman! haha. suddenly i remembered.. Cyclohunt 2 years ago.. we built a bubbly!

lol. dug out the photo cos my snowman had a head, body, eyes and nose.. but it still looks weird..
so i dug out the photo to see wad i'm missing.. haha. realised that i've forgotten to add in the 4 limbs.

by the time i tried to get the correct size for the hands and legs.. the body had become deflated -_- lol.
smashed the body and just took photos of the head..

 

lol.. bro was sayying.. looks very scary leh! esp. the first one with black background.. haha.
attempt to make a snowman.. Fail. lol.

hmm.. joey and grace were posting their krabi trip photos with another friend..
on one of the album's description was..
"I'll lean on you and you lean on me and we'll be okay." - Dave Matthews Band
once upon a time.. i thought life's going to be this simple too..

everyone eventually grows up.. we realise life's complicated..
but now and then, we find our old self.. and have fun.
a simple silly bubble brings me back to those days when life is so much simpler. :)

been living in my own world..
very long never post something more meaningful le..


Things Work Out


Because it rains when we wish it wouldn't,
Because men do what they often shouldn't,
Because crops fail, and plans go wrong-
Some of us grumble all day long.
But somehow, in spite of the care and doubt,
It seems at last that things work out.

Because we lose where we hoped to gain,
Because we suffer a little pain,
Because we must work when we'd like to play-
Some of us whimper along life's way.
But somehow, as day always follows the night,
Most of our troubles work out all right.

Because we cannot forever smile,
Because we must trudge in the dust awhile,
Because we think that the way is long-
Some of us whimper that life's all wrong.
But somehow we live and our sky grows bright,
And everything seems to work out all right.

So bend to your trouble and meet your care,
For the clouds must break, and the sky grow fair.
Let the rain come down, as it must and will,
But keep on working and hoping still.
For in spite of the grumblers who stand about,
Somehow, it seems, all things work out. 
(http://www.wow4u.com/things-work-out/index.html)


i hope so...

haiz.. can shout fever cheer le.. on and off. =/
can be an excuse why i'm feeling so lethargic these days lol. :P

every weekend of july should have meant something..
key words in the above sentence.. 'should have'

haha total randomness.

had my first full lesson for this sem.. not bad.
afternoon lecture and not too bad lecturer = higher chances of attending it haha.
lol.. nope.. this sem will be good. =)

tt day papa asked "Ai.. 这么久没看到.. 最近没听你打电话， 喊来喊去啊？ 没有回去，也没有联络了啊？" mumbled "huh.. 没有啦" and walk away.

hmm.. somehow a scene came into mind.. forget when and where le.. quite long ago when we still 不是很熟... its a conversation bout how the seniors know each other so well tt they know their family members as well.. and i said, "ok lar, we roughly know also lar" "you all can lar, i don't have le ar.. my batch ppl all disappear already" was the reply then..

then.. we 不熟, but somehow become 熟了.. also get to know the 'ang ke' and 'ang ki' of the different houses, not only those at my place ask.. sometimes when go over to.. 'angke, angki' there will also ask.. 'Ai so long never see...'. just always smile.. isn't that the best reply..

not that don't have.. you have it.

140710.. 1st day of school.. horrible. totally.

Waking up is not much of a prob.. didn't really sleep much. Turning around more than being in deep sleep.. shut the alarm before it rang.
Well getting out of bed was the prob as usual. lol. not much for today actually.. been lying in bed quite awhile before alarm rang.. so ya.

Totally forgotten how far is home to school! and how pack the train can be in the morning.. not feeling well.. lack of air, jerky train ride.. no seats.. khatib to clementi seems to take forever. horrible feeling.. nearly gave up and alight at CCK. but told myself.. first day of school, must go. Somehow i psycho and pushed myself to school.. didn't stayed for long though.. left during break. cannot take it.

not feeling well.. not in the mood to talk.
left sch.. afraid to take 74 to amk as the bus ride is long, with a churning stomach and throbbing head.. don't risk it. looking at the overhead bridge.. doesn't seems to be a good option too.. when i'm still debating how.. a bus i seldom take came.. thinking that it will be stopping at a mrt station earlier than amk, i hopped on..

guess fate wants me to board that bus bah.. no it didn't stop at the station that i thought it will.. it goes all the way to interchange and took a longer route than 74 to amk.. but it passes by a place. and i noe why i've board the bus.. but i've realised abit late.. the bus passed that stop. decided then that i'll head back later.
1 year.. and tt place.. coincidence.. or not.

spend sometimes in bishan library.. the quiet and calm environment.. always able to give me some peace when needed. spend alone time again.. drift in and out of lala land now and then :S haha. well.. eventually head back to that place..

but haiz. went a bit too late. its closed. didn't know that it closes so early.. remembered that we've been there quite late in the evening..
Though its closed, i stand outside for a few minutes.. imagine how was it then.. i gave my thanks and hope for guidance..

Back home.. keep having a nagging feeling.. tried pushing it off. telling myself how silly it is.. but at 12+ i gave in.. 让自己心安..

this is a totally senseless entry. head hurts.. haix.
doesn't matter.. nitez

school starts for me tml.
last day of freedom today..
went out, walk aimlessly for awhile, ate dinner.. alone.
lol. very long nv do such things le..
wanted to buy something.. something to 告诉自己‘开学了，要快乐’ but didn't found anything..
walking alone.. observing others.. its just an emo day. haha.

时不时想起一些回忆..
afterall, i'm in bugis.. every shop seems to be able to trigger something.. 
and its just one day before 1407.. another one year..
"are you ok?" lol.
sitting at mos, drinking milk tea.. hmm.
it also reminded soon gotta mug le =/
saw some guys sitting there playing their psp.. lol. the period of time when we did that too..

still in the emo mood when back home.. look at some old entries, some conversations, browse through some photos.. haha. and i realised that last year this time I'm doing such things too..
"Tuesday, July 14, 2009
~ 1:37 AM ~

been looking through those old albums on facebook, in my hard disk, reading old blog entries and even tagboard tags these days... great great memories... miss it... lots lots.


but i'm thankful that technology allowed us to store and keep these memories for us to look through now and then... like my status in facebook "what we now from those days are memories... and at the same time... we are building new memories."


we have a whole lifetime of memories to keep... a whole lifetime to build more memories...
 
well well... I shall count my blessings =) coz though things end one by one... those by my side will still be around to start things one by one for us to look forward to and build new memories... "

hmm.. lol. i thought so then. tt day i'm the optimistic me. few entries later its the pessimistic me lol.

right now.. these photos, conversations are just great great memories.. and i'm thankful for them. for the happy and sad times we once share and stand by each other..

we might not be creating more memories together.. but at least there's the past memories to look back and smile now and then..
and who knows.. what's lying ahead for us.. :)

摄影是让瞬间变成永恒的魔法.. 在摄影时, 要拍的不是什么漂亮的相片，而是想让大家留住永远不想忘记的瞬间 - 下一站，幸福

yupyup.. glad that we did have quite a few photos to remember by..
lol I want to buy camera lar!

=/ 1am+ le! gotta sleep.. morning lesson tml =X
nitez my friends..

its getting worse.. never really been gone but thought its getting better le.. but this 2 days seems..... again.. :S hope its just me 心里作用..
if i.. who will be there?

Start of new week..
End of World Cup, End of nfac 2010.
Start of school in few days time.

many thoughts.. unsure how to start though. lol.
this post window was open since 12/7 afternoon.. now its night le.. and i guess.. maybe till tml i'm still not sure what i want to blog haha.

110710 - end of nfac'10.
This year, had the chance to see where we stand among the others.. see if all these trainings had helped.
nannied the ac and nc team in the morning, check their uniform, give them the honey, wished them the best of luck. sending them off to registration.. 好像送他们上战场, lol.. hoping that everything will be good.

as the com starts..
seeing them at the muster parade, seems to be among the better ones..
at each component station, tried to read what the judge is saying, deciphering the case..
worried as we see them do things wrongly, wishing that they can telepathically read our mind lol.
looking at other teams to gauge if we're better or worse off..
overall.. both team performed quite well..

First aid - cpr was unexpected this year.. everyone, first to fourth man was tested on it..
nc did quite badly for that.. our bad.. didn't really drill the others on their cpr. and that shook them abit i guessed.
Footdrill..
ac was quite a disappointment with several major mistakes in there.. luckily didn't lose out much.. guess there's worse teams out there ba haha.
nc.. a litttle bit of hiccup with the lack of timing as they're told to cut timing.. as they resume the timing after reporting, though there's still some usual minor mistakes, overall was still not bad..

Seems that overall nursing standards seems to be better than ambulance, in both adult and cadet cat. lol. Esp AA teams.. quite a few chui teams. lol. guess all the better ambulance teams are sent to the cadet cat. ba..

Announcing of results..
anxious, anxious.. and on top of it there's some stress and pressure..
We need to get up on stage at least once..
as we were saying.. in zone fac, we'll hope that when they announce results, our name will not be read out too early.. in nfac, every category results, we'll hope "是我们， 是我们" from the start. lol.


praying hard then.. the need of an award..

guess our '是我们' prayer worked bah.. lol. Third in HomeNursing NC9 zone 5! stun for a moment and cheer.. lol. clapped so hard that the hands turned red. home nursing afterall was often thought to be one of the weaker component for us.
tt moment.. a big rock was lifted off.. we've been up on stage at least once le! lol.
having done well on home nurse gave us some hope that we still can fight for the top 3..
with the pressure off, hope injected, was anticipating the rest of the results..
well.. nc's mark was quite tight if i'm not wrong.. didn't manage to clinch the thrid..
But they've done well :)

after seeing the nc able to obtain something.. hope for the ac naturally increased..
the first component result - FA long case.. Third AC6 zone 5! lol our hoping for '是我们' mantra from the start of each result quite effective ar lol. always the 'first' to be called.
With a long case well done, like homenurse, its a big component.. hope to clinch the top 3 increased..
at the same time was hoping for another award in perhaps short case as it seems to be quite alright..
but well.. didn't..
then come toc, was not really expecting anything as the debrief at the station was not very good.. 
miracles do happen! another 3rd :)
gave us a higher chance for overall placing.. and Well done ambulance! 2nd runner up! :)

after the announcement of results.. happiness for both.. its been a long while since z5 had went up to stage several times in nfac bah..
at the same time, a big rock lifted off.. at least we had something to 'report'.. (lol automatically wtf appeared after i typed 'report')

美中不足之处.. the na, zh nursing team was a big big disappointment.. haiz. i thought they'll at least appear.. i thought.   


Happy 过后, somehow starts to think about lots of things..
this year's nfac.. to others its just a 2 months time and effort..
to me its much more.. many underlying things that others don't see and will not know..
nfac 的代价.. 小的这样，大的也这样.. haiz.
110710 competition, somehow also brought a closure not to 1, but 2 years of nfac centralise training..
one year from today, 120709 we ended nfac09.. tt night we're talking.. "the end seems so sudden.. doesn't feel right".. though this year its a different group of pple.. but they're the first batch that actually participate after the start of centralise training.. by us.
我们开始的， 现在看到他们的成就， 可以结束了。 
though we know.. the ac result is not really due to centralise training.. ac just add to the large amt. of nfac headahce lol.
while waiting for result.. 不禁想.. it shouldn't be just the 2 of us waiting, feeling anxious.. it could have been another shared memories.. but well.. its not. tt's life.
lol this entry took forever.. still dunno what i'm writing.. gave up haha. bye~

feeling alright.. at least no more difficulty.. seems to be back to normal. knowing myself, i'll just ignore till it comes again. =X

hmm.. counting down to starting of school... :( haven find a kai xue kuai le.. but it seems to be losing its significant. haiz..
well, go eat before sch reopen.. to be prepared for the tough time ahead bah haha.

sometimes, somethings really cannot say it out.. will be jinxed. lol.
yesterday was just saying.. will be 'free' soon le.. and arrows flew over.
can't help but felt tt its because we're the one doing it tt's y...
WTH?! accompanied with !@#$%^&*())!
reminded me of the 'Shhhh!' incident last year. lol. just as wtf ridiculous.. haha. 
things tt gave reasons to stay away.. 

wanna go running! but these days been afraid.. few more days if feels alright shall start running again.. :)
too long nv run le.. gotta keep to it..
hmm.. still not decided should or should not.. ending soon le.. then we've said 'let's go..' but everything's different le.. hmm. dunno.

just the good memories.. these days its just a little tug, and smile. :)

when one's not feeling well.. i think being outside is much safer than being at home..
afterall, if you collapse at home, what's the chances of having a first aider, doc or nurse around?
the chances of that is much higher when you're outside.. and even not.. you'll at least get help from others who can help you call an ambulance.

lol. just a random thought.

yesterday night, i learned a new sensation..

070710 - 2 months. Well done.. to you.
don't think i've been doing well for this 2 months. lol.
not an easy 2 months.
whenever the screensaver appear, i'll quickly move the mouse so that it disappear..
why don't just remove it? coz when i see it.. despite the heartaches.. they still bring smiles..
take things in stride.. and see where we go ya. :)

live life well.. afterall we'll never know which moment will be the last.
yesterday's 7pm show one of the character said our fav. phase.. not totally the same but well almost similar.
"人会死就是会死。 过马路， 被车撞死。 吃鱼圆，被鱼圆哽死。 走路踩到香蕉皮，滑倒死"

anyone with some basic knowledge will know that these signs and symptoms means bad bad..
just be an Ass and assume everything's ok.

Today is sleeping day. really sleep alot =X
tired tired sat. largely due to lying on bed, unable to sleep on friday night...
friday night, just before sleeping, went to check something..
not sure why i always do such things.. but still i did it.
and though i've expect the result, its always still able to hit me greatly.
hmm. i dunno what to do. few more days to think. think no point asking since won't have reply anyway bah..
so much so tt i felt.. brslsl..

well luckily that sat is a busy day. mock com, end of nfac'10 training.
though they brought in many thoughts as well..
thinking bout the last mock com in april this year.. the last mock com last year.
so much had change.. for a nfac.
from those by our side, to those we see them grow..  all are different now.
haiz. well.. at least everything ended on a good note..
next week competition.. and it'll be one more down..
next week will also be 12 july..

many impromtu plans made..
charmaine dropped by for visit.. was talking bout ndp and decided to ask uncle tay if there's tickets..
till the very last min. uncle tay then replied that there's 4 CR tickets.
so last min tt bbq's not yet done.. parade starting.. ended up running to esplanade with charmaine to find uncle tay first..
leg was cramped after tt =X with the wrong footwear, it felt worse than the usual runs. lol.
saw uncle ronnie after almost 1 year!

was walking round to find the entrance.. thinking whether to go in first or wait for lishi.. heard the command from outside and decided to go in first.. afterall the highlight of NDP to us is the parade and fireworks lol. But well.. by the time we went it the contingents were already in place.. 'ministers' had already arrived. but saw the parade commander Lek Seng Khoon! haha. and charmaine was like 'ai the video is last year de!' lol.
managed to catch the marching in of GOH and colours.. hearing the commands, the music.. seeing the march in.. goosebumps.. both of us were constantly 想当年about ndp'09.. missing it..
Being use to seeing the contingents marched in and directly we'll sing the national anthem as we'll just have to wait for the president last year.. this year's parade segment felt draggy though that's how it is for the last few years..
rushed out halfway to pass lishi and tiexuan the tickets.. running all the way outside as the next arrival will be the 'president', main thing.. it will be national anthem.. but well.. still didn't run fast enough and missed the flag flying pass.. end up singing the anthem near the entrance.. can't see anything :( haha. 好想念singing the anthem and saluting at the flag haha. oh and the 'president'... Charmaine like lol.. the same guy. haha.
though this year the 24 other contingents didn't really do a march pass.. they did a forward march and still pass by the president.. similar to last year.. just less formal ba.. NDP'09 is still best haha. :P
职业病... automatically will see their dressing.. spot their mistakes.. yesterday's dressing was quite bad with a huge gap between column 7 and 8 i think. lol. in the morning at hq, saw the ndp contingent pple doing dressing and all.. one officer changing their position etc. i lol and said 'i spot the person doing my job' haha.
well.. the rest of the segment was so so only.. esp the fireworks.. can't even see much from our seats.. =X

after the parade.. another last min impromptu plan.. 'lets go watch ger vs. arg.' lol. by the time we met up with candy and zw.. we got to squeese into mac with the large crowd.. there's even camera crews interviewing pple. lol. spot for lishi and zhenwei on tv or stomp haha.
nice match.. with a huge crowd its always more interesting than watching alone haha. 

By the end of the day.. I stink of charcoal, bbq food, sweat, rain and mac. horrible =X bath and can barely open my eyes.. sat infront of the com to stare till my hair dry.. gave up halfway though. lol.

by the time i lie onto bed.. was so tired that it didn't take me long to fall asleep..
but some thoughts still came to my mind..
if god bring me so far to let me die.. ok i'll take things as it is.
i rather things still hurt than not to feel anything at all..

haha. typed a whole chunk of very random stuff.. just narrating.. nothing meaningful..
just to get thoughts out of my mind. and.. slept too much previously.. don't feel sleepy yet.. argh!
日夜颠倒ar.. =/

went out dinner with the sim peeps. a farewell dinner for jane before she flies off to aussie for the next 2 years.
usual me being among them.. observing more than participating.
when things are getting a bit slow.. 很习惯地拿出手机.. and thought of..
lol, didn't realise that it had been a habit till tonight.
i think through how it is for the last few times.. and hmm.. ya.

jane's AC partner flying off to jap and won't be there to send her off.. they hugged and keep saying bye. lol.
i think i saw tears.. reminded me of tt time sending off moomoo. tt's so long ago haha. she's almost graduating le. lol.

was thinking.. its 2 years le.. yet, i can't really say i'm close with any of them.. my bad that i've not really put in the effort bah.

seeing jane preparing to fly off.. talking with sy tt time bout her hk exchange..
with the life right now.. 还蛮想试试going overseas, having a different life over there.. what will it be like..
but well.. too many constraints currently.
perhaps one day...

tonight, when going out, i've a nagging feeling.. but lol. nothing.
when at 'sun with moon', i almost thought.. but lol, i'm just thinking too much lar.

oh anyway.. the food's so so only.. ice-cream at B&J after tt was nice though..

being very random le.. nitez peeps!