Monday, August 31, 2009
~ 10:58 PM ~
just surfing aimlessly and stumble onto http://www.goldinuniverse.com/default.asp on QQ's blog... and wow... its really quite surprisingly true for the moment... i remember doing something similar and picked a different order... I guess, it changes over time bah...
Name: Hong
Date: 8/31/2009
You are seeking affectionate relationships, offering fulfilment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realise the bond of affection that you desire. (yes...) But you need the same consideration and understanding from others (now and then... but I'll brush it off... its just my ego, it doesn't matters, it shouldn't... coz read the last line... I'm already learning ba. =) ) and it is this need that will sometimes hold you back... so let go, trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens. (I guess I knew something like this deep in my heart... that's where my self assurance, self psychoing trust and believe comes in bah...)
You are working extremely hard trying to improve your image. You need for those people in positions that matter to recognise your potential and to acknowledge you. (hmm... not sure... perhaps... I need some focus in life bah.)
At times all of us would like to be like the ostrich - to be able to bury our heads in the sand and let the rest of the world go by, but unfortunately you can't do just that - you have to face up to reality. A little peace and quiet would be most acceptable at this time but if only one could turn a blind eye to the problems of the day! Tomorrow is another day and who knows, it could be 'today' (not tomorrow) that could be the first day of the rest of your life! (wow! how does it noes that I love to hide under my blanket and run away... haha... 我承认自己是个讨厌面对现实的人,但我不会逃避该有的责任)
You are an emotional, sincere and impressionable individual experiencing frustration and unnecessary stress. (the ups and downs in 2009... life without focus... yes...)You vehemently resist any form of pressure from outside sources, insisting on your independence as an individual. You want to be a decision maker (note its "want to be.".. haha coz I am not able to be... tt's y i'm still lost) - to make up your own mind without interference. You wish to be able to draw your own conclusions and arrive at your own decisions. You're a perfectionist and even though you may feel that the other person's point of view may be right, you find it difficult to admit that you could be wrong. (haha... I don't really need to admit coz they'll shoot me once I'm wrong... its not too hard to say ar nah ar nah... lol. But well... aren't there times I'm right too... bleah)
You would like to be respected and valued for yourself and this can only be achieved from within a close and harmonious relationship. (do i have it yet?)
~ 10:33 PM ~
最近老是失眠,its becoming more and more frequent this year....
好不容易睡着了,weird dreams start playing... 真的是日有所思,夜有所梦
when you can't sleep, you will just start to think of lots and lots of things... ok perhaps its only me...
then when you finally fall asleep, you thoughts will creep into your dreams... cause and effect ya...
and most prob the next day will be a grumpy day...
haha I've learnt from aunty that... there's always few days in a month that we can blame our emo-ness on... =P
so... I should fully make use of it and be emo ya... lol
tomorrow will be a better day. =)
~ 12:13 AM ~
310809 Nike Human Race 1 year ago...
haha random... but well... not that random as well... lol
rar... emo day again.
Somehow... August seems such a long month! 1 Aug and 9 Aug flew by... but after that life seems to start crawling........
9 Aug seems like a long long ago thing... but its just 3 weeks ago!
14 Aug we ran away... its just 2 weeks ago... but well... it seems horribly long... it feels like minimum 1 month ago... haiz
well last week was hmm... nothing much.... mugging mugging mugging...
a long long 3 weeks in august...
Not sure what September will bring for us... joy happiness fun and laughter I pray...
on a night like this... have faith.
Trust and believe that what's meant to be will be.
Life's an amazing journey... it brings strangers together from different places, different ages to become friends, supporter for one another.

lolz a photo 1 yr ago... been through with me on those days... up and down... see if we got the chance to take another one on this year's nike 10k ya...
oh... blog's picture is down... thinking of doing my own's template... hmm... if time permits bah... see how... till then...
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
~ 12:29 AM ~
August... when all the uni start school once again... 88 jc guys start this yr too... nxt yr will be the 88 poly guys turn....
If 2 yrs ago, I've the courage to choose what I'll like to study... I'll be graduating and perhaps joining them next yr too...
Since young we're often told... Study what you like, like what you study... and studying won't be a chore...
Then i always thought... once I've the choice I'll study what I love. I'll work in a field where I'll love my job.
But as we grow... we realise things are often not that easy. Yes, if you want hard enough, high chances you will get it. But are you courageous to take the risk, to walk the path that differs from the norm... I'm not...
2005 I'm given the chance to pursue what I like... but I can't make up my mind.
2007, 2008 even up to 2009 there's always a chance... just if i want to take it or not... but I just let it pass...
No focus in life... Its.... really horrible. I thought then when I finally decided to take what I'm doing now, I could make myself focus and do well in it... but then I realise... Its really hard to when you don't even like it... everything is a chore. I gave myself, promise myself 1 yr... but I can't keep to it. In fact, its getting bad to worse. I've tried... I really did.... perhaps I'm one who could never excel.
Perhaps I'll just forever follow the norm... get a normal admin job, work the normal hours, do the routine things everyday... earn a normal average pay, live an average life, be an average person going through the motion in life... haha... Well Done Hong!
Thursday, August 20, 2009
~ 10:53 PM ~
最近,有时觉得好累啊... 渐渐地,好像没有以前的那些简单快乐...
好像又成为了台后的那些不起眼的背景, 不时有需要时才会被呼叫上台, 不需要时又回到了后台...
有时其实好想放开, 让自己不再在乎那么多, 但做不到... 背景始终需要那个舞台, 需要它周围的人们... 没有了他们, 背景或许无法生存吧....
Monday, August 03, 2009
~ 12:25 AM ~
Last weekend... on Sunday night I felt... eventful... happening weekend, especially sunday... I felt life is fragile... glad to be a first aider... Pro Utilitate Hominum - for the service of mankind.
This weekend... haiz. Well it eventful too... haha. Things just happen... I can only tell myself... its meant to be... perhaps things happen for a greater reason that we might not see. Well it does not rains, it pours.
My reason of emo-ing is coming soon =P so well... that explains why the water keeps running in my eyes.
School is taxing me heavily too... how i want to run away...
I felt that the big rain has yet to come... I feel its somewhere... waiting to happen... hope i'm wrong...
People often say... Good things, Bad things come in threes... lol. It all depends how i want to count it. It can be 3, less than 3, or more than 3 le. chinese have the saying of 穷富不过三代 as well... well hope the 3 things are over ba =)
Three... lol. I believe we're the good things bah =P
don't believe in the curse bout 3. lolz have too many examples in life that have shown me otherwise. S.H.E for one. haha. those ppl also nv watched Charmed - the power of three =P lol still got fu lu shou! haha =P
Relationship, Friendship, 人一人之间, i believe its the effort people put in to maintain it... the trust and believe built, if every party in the relationship/ friendship treasures it, wants to keep it sailing... i believe that nothing will change...
coz when the sky drops, we'll support it up... when things goes wrong, we'll work it right... even when sometimes the most important - trust is shaken, we'll forgive and believe, and solidify the trust again... well at least till death put us apart. haha. cliche.
this chorus keeps replaying in my mind since last few week... "deep in my heart I just know, right from start we will grow. look where we are, we've come so far, and there's still a long long way to go." haha NDP! and more...
We Will Get There
Remember the days, we set out together with faith?
Remember the times, so fine, when we thought that
Nothing could stand in our way?
Then things weren't the same
the life that we knew had to change
We've struggled through, the darkest storms
We thought we couldn't tame
Together we've tried, as we stood side by side
I knew we'd build a new world
A world of hope for ever after
Deep in my heard I just know
Right from the start we will grow
Look where we are, we've come so far
And there's still a long long way to go
With all my heart, I will care
I'll play my part, I will share
With family and friends, together we'll stand
And in the end, hand in hand
We will get there
So now we begin
Working together to win
Believe in trust, it must
Be possible to overcome anything
There's so much to do
There's so much we can contribute
By sharing just a little love
We will start again anew
So why don't we try?
If we stand side by side
I know we'll build a new world
A world of hope for ever after