像是不久前的过去， 我总是期待新的一年的到来。
如今到了12月31好的凌晨，我却感到一阵空虚。
我害怕未来。
无论是家里，朋友，学业，或是自己身上，多发生了许多事情。
有好，有坏。 有的只有到2007才能揭晓。

生命总有着这么多的未知数，不管早来多少的数学家，科学家，有着多好的计算机，也是没用。

2007 is coming in less than 24 hr. 2006 will be history. 06 seems to be just a dream to me. Filled with joy, with laughter but it is filled with the fear... the guilt... the horror and so many low points that no one will know.

Live life to the fullest.
Treasure everyone, everything you have. They might be gone forever anytime anywhere, then all you are left with are memories.
Memories are point in time that time itself cannot erase.
Memories are unique to you yourself, they are yours to keep, specially yours.
Don't deprive yourself with it.
Be it laughter or tears when you think back, be it sweetness or heartaches.
It is part of you. Don't run away from it.
Without memories, you are a body without a soul.
Without memories, you are just watsing your life and not living it.
Don't. It is a sin.

Lolz emotional me... late in the night early in the morning. Wadever... =P

Happy Boxing Day? =X Remember not long ago when I said that its the end of my hols prog? I can't be more wrong. More prog just cont' coming. $ is really running low. Jobs are not coming in. Haiz. But nevertheless these few weeks are really Happening. Its really e6, 05s45 then at times family. Kinda drain out... eg. today no prog for once slept from yesterday 2+am till today 1+pm... woke up slack around then about 4pm I start sleeping again then woke up at about 6pm. Then while sleeping I dream alot. Not sweet dreams... Oh ya miss out that I'm busy reading comics as well... It started off with death note then Prince of Tennis caught my attention halfway while multitasking with Shaman King as well. Mostly reading P.O.T these days.

Let me just summarise the major events.
19 Dec, Tues
Done one of the craziest thing I've done... Cycle in ubin during a Heavy Heavy downpour. Well its been raining a lot. 19 Dec is the second day of the first major rain - the one that lasted for 3 days stop on the third day then cont' raining. Lolz not here to talk bout the rain. Well just imagine mainland Singapore is flooding... Ubin hmm... Ok lar not so bad but some lowland areas is kinda flooded. It feels like we're swimming with our bike... Our last route back Mast decided to train out the discovery path. Lolz it seems like the path we walk for solo walk the other time... not very sure. Anyway its flooded. And its not proper path its mud. Mud + puddle of water = Hong nearly drown lolz tt's exaggerating lar... the guys said that to 'scold' mast for bringing us back that route =P... just that I'm at the first postion then so seeing the puddle of water not knowing its depth I just chiong over as what we've done the whole day... who knows... the mud is soft and the bike sinks without thinking I get down the bike and I sink as well... I went down mud slightly higher than my ankle and water about baby pool height lolz. And I'm still sinking slowly... with my bike. Lolz. Lucky Sandesh was not far behind. Managed to get out with a new muddy shoe. I'm wearing a windbreaker but the rain is so big that we still get drenched... Shivering on our way back from ubin. Missed dinner with my family but ate a full full meal at Changi. They cont' with pool at Parkway I left. My phone the new one SE K800i was wet. Can't function. Argh. So vunerable as compared to my previous N6230. Fortunately it recovered later in the afternoon the next day... just before I'm about to leave the house to the service center. Lolz a trip to the service center must be horrible if not why my phone so scared till recover le. =P

Anyway I'm really addicted to cycling... esp in the rain. Twice cycling with S45 was in the rain. =) Planning to buy a bike with my first pay... and then a new windbreaker that can withstand heavy rain. =)Well... get a job first =X

18 Dec/21 Dec ( Mon/ Thurs)
Backtrack... went to zoe house to make tortise chinese chess (wu gui qi) for huang lao shi... some pics erm... can't upload now due to some reason =X next time bah... Went to meet Tiffany to settle my treasurer stuff on thurs morning at mac... went to zhss after that. Enter the canteen someone greeted Good morning ma'am... stone... har my cadet arh? lolz yar... They're there to pract for orientation... Meet the e6 peeps... Only Emily and William there... still waiting for the others. Realise St John room open. Went in... lolz think the NCOs were shock the guys were there think they stone for a moment till I tell them to cont' what ever they're doing I'm just happen to pass by. Then since the others not here yet I get the treasurer file which is in a Horrendous Mess! Only things that is in order is till Pearlyn year-04. Sort out the things. Then went out. The rest were here already. Did last min touch up on the tortises... Get huang lao shi out played bball... Then later go for lunch... Tom Yam =) Gather up others namely xuming xinyu yucui sinyee... went to movie at Marina Square... Watched Aragon. Quite nice if you like fantasy. Well I do... =)

23 Dec
05S45 Xmas Gift Xchange at.... Rendezvous Hotel. Erm don't think too much. Its suppose to be at Mr Ang's house as usual he can't do it last min but at least he got us a place in the end. Played some lame game... hear some gossip. Time flies. Before I knew it Elaine had to go... Kel had to go as well... I'm suppose to go as well... and if I go Kim had to go coz she can't possibly stay alone... In the end Elaine managed to stay Kim stayed me and Kel left. Haiz... Oh ya gift xchange... lolz I got a pair of toy sword and dagger from enhuo lolz. Kinda dotz but I appreciate every gift I receive =) And my bro have fun playing it... *roll eyes*. Lolz.

24 Dec
Xmas eve this yr is kinda diff from the previous few years. Celebration at my just married 'aunty''s house. lolz. Watched lots of movie coz her husband my... uncle in law? wadever lar we just call him kor kor... nv call her aunty anyway just call her jie jie since she's just few yr older than us though we diff generation... she's my grandfather's sister's daughter. Yup anyway watched 3 movie that night... he got lots of anime as well... going to copy from him then dun need load so long lolz. =) Gift Xchange... recieved a chipmunk handphone holder then a table vacumcleaner (the one jes get from sj xchange) from the house owner =P then a pooh soft toy from my youngest aunt... and lots of choco from others =) Fattening arh =X

Back to present
tomorrow Crappers Gift Xchange at bull bull house =) S45 planning go ubin again... New yr eve dunno go with 45 or e6 or family... still pending... haiz. Job still finding... Cousin suggested I go uncle shop help out first. Hmm... but family company abit scared leh... lolz for what ever reason. Jin let me read some Chi blog's posts. The urge to type some chi post as well... well though I'm not so pro =X so maybe I'lll post another post straight after this...

First of all... Happy Bdae Zoey girl! =) lolz and any idea where am i typing this =P Should know lar hor =P.

Currently at me cousin's house. Noisy noisy outside. Hiding inside my cousin's room... away from others. Am I a loner? lolz no lar just that... aiz ok maybe I'm a loner. Lolz dunno what I'm talking about these days.

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Today.... sucks. I officially announced that I hate 14/12 blah.

My first trip to mind cafe today. Erm if you like me never go there before, its a place to play all sorts of board games and card games. It's much more fun than expected. Went with zoe emily and yucui. Sinyee joined us later for dinner. When we about to finish dinner Jas joined us after her work. Price there quite reasonable. On weekday 2-6pm free flow of drinks and games $5. Anyone want go play? =D

Well get to know that some S45 guys been meeting up... badminton games, people house etc.... haiz. Well its good to know that they're having bonding sessions but sad to know not all are included. Well not the girls at least. Haiz i also know normally they ask the girls also me and kim go only... and guys talk and stuff... have us around also... lolz. But just abit sad lar. And I think some guys who normally will join in were not inform as well... well I think lar not sure. I just hoped that I'm not distanced from this class eventually just because the girls are the minority. Hmm.. normally the minority will continue to remain in close contact after years but I think for the girls to remain close after years will be a bit hard... hope I'm wrong on this...

6A-ians are back to our usual stuff of discussing outing details... email. Lolz love these periods of time when they'll flood my email. See their lame conversations. =)

Gtg mum want use byez.

My end of my 'official chaotic holiday plans'. NCOC 2006 marks the end of it. Must really start to look for jobs now. I'm in debt (to myself). Been buying things with my 'future' $$$.

Anyway NCOC camp was fun. A slack camp for me. =) Well we're just the PO - Project Officers. Only part that's a bit stress will be topo for standard since I'm in charge of that. But everything went well. =) It's really a big diffrent to be there as a erm PO and group instructor. During the campfire, the zhonghua officers namely Jes, Calvin, Chuwen, Qinqi and me were like kinda crazy. High. lolz. They used back high as the theme song this year. But group instructors are totally stressed at the back. All chionging their AAR. (I've forgotten what it means. In short its an appraisal for the cadets) Especially this year when each group only have one instructor, compared to last year when we got 2. Even with 2 its taxing already. So the faces of the instructors during the campfire kinda scary lar. Don't dare go near them arh. Fortunately after that its quite ok le... coz there's gift exchange. 1 big prize this year... From Ma'am Sze... AngBao! (red packet)... everyone also want sia. Number of the night 21! Ma'am Siti is the lucky one... rich overnight. Any guess how much in it?.... 2 piece of... blue note... $100 leh. Haiz me.. no such luck =( But not bad lar I got a foldable flat calculator from Ma'am Liyen. Gave my chipmunk to Genevive... but sadly last day it went missing. Haiz. Someone say maybe they pack stores then bring back to HQ. Hopefully =) Then Jes Big Big present was presented to Sir Zhixing. Lolz. Ma'am Fely gave out a rice cooker... recieved by Lingli. Lolz. Oh then Sir Baotian recieved present from Ma'am Lina. They're suppose to hug and kiss but no. =P lolz. Course everyone go get the present Sir keeps singing that part of Canibal King.

Been one camp that we go out of the school as well. First day me qinqi jes went out in the lousy ambulance that break down during topo on the second day. Went out with Ma'am Huifen, Sir Zhixing to buy the food stuff for the whole camp. The things we buy is enough for a family to survive for more than one month arh. Photos to be posted at a later date. Then last day morning we took the minibus that is to replace the ambulance to mac at sunplaza with Ma'am Huifen for breakfast =) After camp went to the coffeeshop nearby for lunch. Well coz logistic need to go back HQ so just go nearby to eat. Its a treat by Sir. =) Then still talk till they often go Sir Baotian house to play mahjong all tt. After lunch me and jes were like walking to Mrt station then honk. Sir Baotian on his motorbike. Wave. Then suddenly minibus stop at the front hop on Ma'am Huifen lobang us back to khatib. =) While me and jes walking to the junction after alighting at khatib, honk. Sir Baotian appear again. Lolz. He went back home and change le. Pengz. Overall a fun 4 days 3 nights camp. Dun mind go back like tt with no position sia.

For now looking for jobs... any good jobs around? And hopefully there's a 6A gathering soon... Thanks to Danis at least we got something started at least. Planning to get M45 back to Chiangmai trip started as well... soon. Byez for now. =)

Just back from prom at 6.30am. This is really one of the last time le. 05S45 just rawks! =) Hmm... but I'm sad because of prom can't go gentings =( Blah. Prom itself is quite disaapointing... No dancing!!! Sianz ended quite early. Fortunately we manage to find our own place after long long time. Lolz... don't bother to go to details lar.

Not sleeping yet course.... gonna go to sch in few hours. Sianz. For? For CO performance at IMM. I think so. =X Cannot Must not sleep lar. If not later can't wake up. =P

Didn't blog bout the chalet. Won't say its the greatest, or best chalet. But its the most memoriable one... Well. Will do a entry with all the photos someday.... hopefully soon. Then let the picture tell my story. =)

But b4 that I plan to do up a layout first. So pple be patient wait. Well if there's anyone reading lar. Byez to whoever still checking around my blog. Thanks. =)