虽然自己不是过得很好，看到关心的人过得幸福快乐.. 也会为他们感到快乐.. glad to know, though not part of it. Stay t.happy ya. :)

Was quite surprise myself that I actually felt better when I clicked in.. Esp. on a day that I'm totally screwed up inside out myself. though there's so much that I no longer know about anymore.. But its no longer that important anymore too. Seeing you enjoying the life that you always wanted, 尽情的享受人生吧!

As for myself.. 2012 had been horrible! after the swollen eyes week came the fever/blocked nose week followed by rashes/hives..
Then.. Not only my body screwed up, work screwed up too when I spilled a cup of water onto my working laptop. Seriously stunned. Of cos it died.. Leading to work piling up everyday and staying back late to use other people's com after they go home.. Haiz.

And these are only the Suay highlights.. little minor suay things happen throughout this 20 days.. :/

surviving everyday with lots of trust and believe.. And I can only say.. Sometimes miracle do happen.
And little things also been pushing me along and helped me to hang on.. Messages, Meetups and Gatherings are all my greatest strength lol. Though those who are life buoys might never know lol.

Ok eyes closing while I type is the signal to submit and sleep..
Good nitez!
Shall have a post before cny.. Hopefully haha.

Haiz just the fourth day of the new year and I'm sick.. :(
Swollen eye.. shocked myself in the morning.. Swelling went down a bit but was still quite bad.. :/

Things didn't get better but worse with blocked nose and eventually fever coming up.. :/ haiz..

Hope to get well soon.. Somehow seems that whenever I'm not at work, weird things will just happen and leave shit behind.. Just hope that it can be cleared easily and won't have long lasting impact.. Just don't understand how some people work.. :/

Haha.. This entry took a year to be posted.. started it on the last day of 2011.. and its now 2012! lol.. will be a long post..

Its been so long!!! haha.
December had been a busy month.. new job, camp, chalet, lots of meetings and now we're on the last day of Decemeber.. Last day of the year..
time to look back, see how I've come, reflect, be thankful and look forward to the new year..

Yesterday night, was looking for a photo.. only to realise several folders are missing.. and remembered.. they're gone when the hdd was gone at the start of the year.. haiz. Those memories will just be memories.. so be it.

Let's do a recap.. in the reverse style..December first..

Though December was hectic and broke due to all the Christmas shopping, thinking back, it had been a not too bad December.. New job was Hmm.. So so. But fortunately lucky to have lots of good people around.. Shall see how things go as time goes ba.. 3 Weeks is too short to set a conclusion..

Camp was.. Hmm. 10 years le. Time to reconsider things there once again..

Christmas itself was.. Simple joy. :) chalet with our zhsj family for xmas eve's eve.. was tired and irritated when heading there actually, but everything turn out fine eventually..
Christmas eve was spent playing guitar hero, FIFA with the usual.. simple but happy night.. Well till a stupid driver spoil the night.. But thankful that everyone's safe and sound I guess.. Felt bad though.. :/

zhsj has been a great second family.. :)
all the k, late nights meetups.. They're a big part of me.. Esp. in 2011..
now the kids had graduated, hope they'll continue to be part of this too..

I realized its quite hard to do a flashback in the reverse order.. And this year, as a whole I think not so much of fluctuations over the months..

The horrible feeling of knowing that everything had changed, faded as time pass.. Sometimes it will come for a visit.. But it no longer haunt me as before..
diff group of people played an important part of my life in 2011.. but somehow they always slowly fade out..

but thankfully there's always the family.. like they say.. "Zhonghua is our second home, St John is our second family!" haha. 无论外面多好，回到家还是最舒服的.. same goes for this second family of mine.. :)

few highlight of 2011..
Failing another mod, didn't grad on time..
which gave me chance to experience a job I like..
getting a first job that don't pay by hour..

looking back.. 2011 is indeed a boring year.. :/
may 2012 be a more exciting year.. in a good way though..

blessing in 2011..
Family still healthy, safe and sound..
Ahma's health, all the operation on dad and various uncles..
everything's went on smoothly..
myself still alive and kicking.. which I think is a big big blessing le..
Hopefully I will continue to be blessed..

ok lets move on to 2012!
ended the year with the usuals and the a whole bunch of havoc kids..
fireworks this year was disappointing though.. smokey due to the wind direction and stuff.. give a not such good start omen for the year.. but still.. lots of wishes while the fireworks light up the sky.. hopefully it works the same way as shooting star ya.. :P

oh ya! managed to see a shooting star in ubin this year! totally unexpected.. my 2nd shooting star.. made a quick wish.. it just reminded me of the first time I saw a shooting star.. in berkelah.. hmm. things changed, and it should be a good enough proof that wishing upon a shooting star don't really work.. hahaha.

a great stoning night after that, followed by dim sum for the first meal. :)

If the world ends in 2012, it will be the last countdown, the last new year! Let's just make everyday a great one!
如果 2012是世界末日，这将是最后一个跨年.. 愿每一天都是精彩的！

and tomorrow will be the first day of work for 2012.. hopefully everything will be well.

Pray hard, trust and believe that we'll all be blessed in this 2012.. to be safe and happy.. to be strong to face whatever god Almighty has planned for us..

人是偏心的.. though everything's no longer the same.. though I no longer wish for the things to be alright anymore.. there's always a little more wishing, hoping and praying for them.. in 2012, 要平安,要幸福wor.. my dearest,b2..