Oh no =( Its only less and one week and I'm missing my dearie lots! Last time still can look forward to meeting it, but now... never. My 901130! =( How to survive days without training...The next time I'll be touching a gun by right will be about exactly one year. And that is if I manage to get into a uni. Haha guess that will be a motivation for me to work hard now.
Now and then I'll still remember about my failure. It still hurts. Academic have only made it worse. There's time, from certain perspective, everything seems to be so wrong. A smile remain on my face but who can see the pain in my heart.Haiz, if you aren't happy, at the least you can provide happiness for others.
Just love this song. It seems to written just for me. =P But well life goes on. Change a perspective, and everything will become better. Sometimes I wonder if this attitude is really good. I started to feel that its an attitude of a loser who can't face failures. Thinking that its over, it no longer matter and forget bout it, isn't it the same as running away? Then why people keep giving it as an advice and at the same time telling us not to run away from troubles / failures? Life is such an irony.
I realise when I'm going through period like this when life is down, I tend to utter things that are contradicting, ironic and most important un-understandable. =S Haha maybe its just reflecting my current life - rubbishful. Change a perspective. It is just like my life hard to understand but in actual fact it has lots of meaningful lessons. It is just how I want to see it bah.
Tonight is the big showdown between Italy and France. Haha don't care I'm going to watch it. 4 years once can't miss it. And guess what. Yesterday, I've bought the Jack and Jill potato chip. First jersey I get... Italy then eat eat eat then see another white packet... its another one! Haha and its France! 2 jerseys in one packet like jin! But I even luckier both finalists in one packet! Perhaps its my luck changing. Planning to start mugging in library after school tomorrow. Erm maybe tuesday since tomorrow might be too tired after world cup. =P
Byez peep. Hope everyone's life is blessed. =) World Cup!!!!!!
