Saturday, August 12, 2006
~ 10:31 AM ~
"An old problem keeps hanging around you like a stubborn stain. It's time to treat it like you would a laundry problem: Get a stain remover and let it soak for a while, then scrub, wash, rinse and repeat if necessary. "
That's the horoscope for aquarius yesterday. Quite true... Yesterday get the trophies for interschool shoot - north zone. Well other people see will think its a sweep cause everyone manage to get at least 1 trophy but for those who know better will knew that its nothing. Its only north zone.
Remember starting of the year I keep telling myself I'm gonna get a trophy this year no matter what. Yep I get 2, 1 gold 1 bronze. But I'm not contented. Haha human nature? Greedy? Perhaps. Cause I know I can do better. First and Second are my teammates, knowing their normal scores and knowing my own scores compared to them during training does not help as well. But they peform much better than me during competition, they deserve it.
Dad mentioned that I'm always like that, can't perform under stress, during competition, during exams. Quite true. But the thing is... I don't really feel stress! I think its the mentality. I want to do my best, till the point I doubt myself. I start wondering am I doing the right thing? Then confidence, morale start dropping. Its like during exam I do the questions... do do do, then suddenly I'll think, "Like wrong leh" then I'll start looking throught my answer and get stuck there watsing time, then I realise I'm wasting time, I'll decide to skip go ahead first. Most of the time I won't be able to go back and continue, so the question will be half done. Then I get back my paper and realise in fact I'm on the right track, if only I continue doing, I'll get the answer eventually.
I know my own weakness, but knowing it is one thing, able to get rid of it is another. I'm trying but its not easy.
My first trophies in shooting. It only marks the start. I want more to come. Each trophy is here to remind me of diffrent things. The individual bronze is to remind me of my weakness, of what I could have achieve more. The gold is here to remind me of others out there who's striving for the top as well, telling me that I've have to work harder to be able to emerge from the rest. Its also here to remind me of what teamwork can do. They are the one who can help you rise to greater heights when you are down there.
Once again I wanna thanks Team Innova, though we're not a very bonded team, it feels good to know there's a team out there with you. I wanna thanks the teacher i/c helping us open the range and appear now and then to give us some encouragement. And last but not least Coach. All the coaches for air pistol esp. The 1st 3 months coach who we didn't really know well, Coach Xinyi, I think. Then Coach Wenwei for the pistolers, and Coach Siew Peng for everything =). Without their coaching Innova Shooting will not be what it is today. We're the pioneers of IJSC!
Thankz Shooting for allowing me to have such a nice memory in IJC. =)
Now... Mug again =X The last countdown to A level... Jiayou! To achieve what we are made to achieve. For our dreams.
