Saturday, November 18, 2006
~ 12:08 AM ~
It's over. What's over? Depends on how you view it. A level is over. The struggle is over. My future might be over. Now its like, everything's fixed, it can't be change anymore, even if I want to.
Well today is a day of relief, yet at the same time its a depress day for me. Since yesterday night lots of things just appear in my mind. Some old memories that had been thrown to the back of my surfaced, lots of future worries entered.
The last few weeks I totally didn't blog. Not that I'm so hardworking and didn't come online... I'm still online everyday for about 1 hr, just that I told myself not to blog , well there's nothing much to blog anyway... =X I won't want to talk about the past anymore. Come next year when you ask me how is it, if I reply that its bad, plz don't ask how bad k. =X Till then, I'll live my life to the fullest.
Haha. One interesting about this exam is how suddenly you all think I can predict the questions arh. So much so that I'm having fun predicting. Haha. Well if I so pro I can go sell exam papers le. =P But sometimes fate and destiny seems so real till the point of it being scary. GP was just a lucky guess after seeing several schools have that as Prelim and I have a feeling that it will be something similar. However I think physics paper 2 then is the scary one. Physics paper 2 is in the afternoon. So in the morning I'm doing 04 paper 1 and 2. After finishing paper 1, I took a toilet break and when I came back I started doing paper 2. Halfway through I feel the questions a bit awkard, the way they ask it and all that seems diffrent. Then I realise that its June 04 I'm doing for paper 2 fustrated then cause not much time le. So go the Nov 04 and start doing over again. Finish mark my ans for nov paper but didn't have time for june paper though I've thought of marking it. So come the actual papers. Paper 2 06 Nov Qn 1 its almost the question on 04 June paper! I totally stunned ok! Few hours ago I'm staring at a question that resembles it 95% And I didn't mark it, and its one of the question I'm not sure how to do. Its also the question I do halfway and realise I'm at the wrong paper. Scary. Very. So what if I've done it before?! I still don't know how to do. Fate. Like Jin said I'm just so close to getting the ans. Perhaps its the way beings up there are playing "Fate and Destiny" with me. The coincidence is a bit scary. What does this shows? I'm not pyschic lar! Haha pengz.
Today is the last time we'll be wearing our school U. Well though I think I still have some chance due to some event. But well for most of us its the last. ok I'm not sure what am I driving at... being a bit sentimental. Perhaps being the pioneer batch made us more attached. From a place that's less than half built to the building it is today, from the orientation by the teachers... so coincidentally led by my dear CT haha. How S45 mark several 'first' We're the first class in the whole IJC history to win the Chinese New Year Competition. Haha. First year wad =P We won the Fist Brainest Class Award. And the First to win it 2 rounds running =P. We're the First to intiatie an Oversea COP trip. I bet we're the first to celebrate a teacher's bday in the staff room. Haha. And I believe we're the first class to have so many first! =) 05S45! =)
Thinking what job should I get... Retail/Sales? Admin? Banquet? Tuition? Haiz. Actually don't really want to commit to long working hours. Like flexible times. Giving tuitions is attractive. Good $ plus more flexible time. But... do I have the ability to teach? Primary school and maybe Lower Sec can lar. But the students and parents see my result then siam liao arh. lolz. Banquet also quite flexi according to kim... but she also say quite tiring arh. But I think quite interesting so see how lor... Plus if do banquet also can give tuition since its flexi hours... On the other hand, admin work will help me see wad's working world like.... though I think I won't like it well.... too restrictive... See how see how bah...
So for now till I get a job will be enjoy! Though I seriously need a job fast... no $ le! Haha. Okies tt's all for now... Byez. =)
