Friday, November 24, 2006
~ 11:25 PM ~
Life these days are spent slacking. Don't want to think about things yet. People have been looking for jobs going for interviews.... Well... I've yet ask for any jobs, just looking around... Schedule is booked quite full till mid dec. So plan to only get a job then. By then my money will be totally drain out =X.
With no studies as the main focus, many other concerns creep into my mind with no reasons/excuses to push it out. Events that I don't want to think about... things that I don't want to be bothered enter into my life again. Fustrating in a way.
Sometimes I really feel that I don't understand people. Perhaps I'm too weird in someways and I expect others to be the same. I think I care too much about things... every small little things can bother me to a large extent. I'm abit too 'responsible' till the extent that I'll get troubled over things that does not even concern me directly. I'm too committed in too many things. Every group, any things, people that I've know even if not very close to, I'll feel attached. Then I'll start getting irritated with others who can't be bother, people who no longer feel the attachment and etc. from time to time. In fact, I understand it. Actually I think they're the normal one... I'm the weirdo. =P
People always say... "I hate hypocrites" But what are hypocrites? People who think in one way but act in another way? In actual fact, who's not a hypocrite in one way or another? If everyone speaks the truth, even if its not meant to be spoken, won't there be fights, wars everywhere? Just imagine classmates being unfriendly to each other cause they don't really like the other person, a hostile class it will be. If trying to be 'friends' with your enemies is being a hypocrite, then why diplomacy exist?
To me... Being friendly to someone you don't really like, doing things that you might not agree but are asked to are not being a hypocrite. Its call compromising isn't it. Things don't always go according to our wishes, we can't always work with friends, as a person, we learn to step back and give way now and then. What is important is that one don't become a backstabber. It is one thing to be a 'hypocrite' and another issue when one become a backstabber. I feel that there are several types of hypocrites. One who compromise for the good of all, and another one who will appear to be friendly not to compromise but to get things to gossip and hurt others.
Blah... not sure what am I talking about. Thoughts totally jumble up these days. Just like my room... in a huge mess, perhaps it reflects my life as well. I totally don't know why am I so pessimistic even though there's no exam stress or what so ever. Argh... dun bother. That's life man.
