Saturday, February 23, 2008
~ 1:26 AM ~
Hmm... just some quick thoughts inputs.
Starting of the year, one thing I hope to achieve this year is to be more independent. Lolz but I think I'll like give up now. I just can't live without too many things... stuffs... etc etc.
Let's start with the more superficial stuff... days without a phone with me feels insecure even if I know that no one will contact me. If my phone is gone with all the memories in it, I'll be devastated. Need a music player whenever I go out as well. Phone is acting as my player these days. Just bought a zen to replace my micro. =) Music blocks out all other nuisances. Soothes one's emotions as well. Whenever I can't stand the hectic noise level/ sleepiness or argh! at work, take out my earphones and plug it in... feel much better after that. Lolz. Think Cindy do the same thing. Whenever see her plug in her earphone or put her cd into the com, i'll know she stress liao.
Next up of course will be my friends, family which make up my 'social life'.
I can enjoy a day, an evening of doing something alone, enjoying the inner peace thingy. But well call me to do that everyday I'll get grumpy. I might be a loner at times, at gatherings, with friends I might be the one who sits at a corner and don't really talk much. But well I just enjoy
the company.
Its just like 1 week with no plans wadsoever, I'm feeling deprived. and its like I'm still going around relative's house for cny visiting during that period of time. Lolz. I think I'm just hyper and need happenings to look forward in life. =P Right now waiting for actions to happen =)
Being kinda deprived =P these days... start missing those days packed with gatherings and meetups.
Some friends we'll miss after not keeping in contact for a long time.
Some we'll miss when not meeting up for a long time though still in contact.
Some we miss though we meet up.
Some we keep in contact, meet up, can't wait and already planning for the next one... yet you still miss them.
Some friends that have drift away... no longer as close but a coincidence meeting or a spontaneous message will still brighten one's day.
A group of common friends, friends' friends, or classmate, some you might just know them by their name, some not that close but sharing some common memories, reliving the memories of those old days, often brought some warm fuzzy feeling.
lolz crappy crappy already...
thought of something even more nonsensical just now... for those who knows me know I'm always nostalgic... living in the past, and at the same time I'm always trying to predict and forsee the future... Most of the time I'm not 100% in the present. So can I say I'm just living the present so that I'll have a 'yesterday' in my history for my 'tomorrow'? lolz. nvm I can't get it myself. haha
Nitez pple! it 3.25am now -_-"
