i thought the end of this week will be a relief. relaxation before i start studying next week.
i forgotten how things always sux when i've nothing to concentrate on.
Yesterday was all well... project completed, celebrated winda's bday + end of proj with steamboat with group.
Today started well... handed up proj, head to celebrate winda's bday + end of proj again but this time with the whole gang.
All was well till a point during the celebration... guess its when everyone starts to take photos, somehow I just slowly become out of the hype... standing out of the ra-ra, my mind starts to drift and one thing led to another. The afternoon is spoilt.
I thought I shall make my night a better one by dropping by... but well... God got his own plan, it just show me something else.
Today.. a few pple told me several things... they seems like some message higher beings are trying to tell me...
"Life's too short for one to not move on"
"Friendship... is nothing" (in response to a question he asked, and answered himself.)
haha. the second one 挤心 ar... lol he didn't noe that he actually hit the nail. I wonder the person behind felt anything... if tt's heard.
During the celebration... the gang as usual kept taking photos... lots of them...
I felt so pro... in acting happy haha. but eventually when i'm left alone at night... i can't take it...
no more strength to put on the mask. no strength to hang on anymore...
on the way home, thought through many many things... and decided to do so.
but when the last part came when I'm thinking "Today, ___________ marks the day that _________", I can't fill in the blanks. haha. yes I'm weak. I'm the stupid one lar. but I just can't do... lol.
I'll keep to my promise I've made in 2008. but i'll no longer keep hoping for things to happen, 没有希望，就不会有失望...
I just don't understand somethings... and I guessed I never will.
