I'll just leave it to Almighty to show me the plan. what's meant to be will be ya..
easily said.. not so easily done..
I'll learn.. :) somehow..
about 2 month ago, the roles were reversed...
similar worries.. but with her, its always much more extreme..
like today.. I didn't said much.. but then and now, they both knew.
and i received a similar advice as today... and i gave a similar reply...
2 of them, 2 different ways of saying.. telling me the same thing..
lol.. its just like a circle..
I failed at talking. Face to face, on phone. no matter how prepared.. can only talk cock sing song, haha.
thought of sending what I wanted to say. well decided to keep the long message for myself bah. :) won't make a difference anyway i guess..
Read this in a book "When you're weak/ scared/ panicky/ crying, you saw those around you feeling more than you.. You will tend to calm down and be the strong one. (erm... its being told in a short story.. I summarised it lol) " and it continues to say... "Probably it's a survival instinct; let's face it, somebody in the tribe has to keep a level head, beacause if the whole tribe panics, they'll all be toast when danger threatens"
haha. I guess it explains why I seems to be so calm that time, when previously I'm almost hysterical lol.
and why I'm mostly alone.. when things are bad.
today I didn't meant to break too.. thought I'm ok.. haha I thought.