Wednesday, August 25, 2010
~ 1:20 AM ~
the last 1 week plus had been horrible.. finally all the deadline are over.. and i'm truly dead. lots of things hanging.. lots of unknown.. not sure if can be push through for this again.. everything just went wrong.. haiz.
end of all these deadline.. hope to indulge in the relief of all that stuff.. but none came.. instead its replaced with emptiness.. the normal joy after all the assignments can't be found.
these few days.. was a hermit.. home, school to hand in assignment, home. only pple i talk to are bro, mum, dad. only comfort was the mos milk tea haha. myKing mini sitting on my desk was the one that kept me going.. 有时做着做着睡着了, sometimes when i woke up and see them on my screen, I smiled.. for the happy times tt came to my mind; sometimes i quickly move the mouse and close it.. cos it clenches me inside.
felt that things had change again.. just don't feel right.. 感觉好远，好陌生..
irmmtsw(s).. and i know things will never ever be the same again.
hmm.. haven pack stuff for the trip.. haix.. not really in the mood..
then when deciding whether to go.. was thinking since moving on, just go.. perhaps a way of showing myself.. something i also dunno wad. haha.
there's no usual discussion, no usual joy of before trip packing.. perhaps am just too tired out from the hellish week.. but hiding somewhere i think i know why..but well come thursday.. will put on a smile and enjoy.. haha like mummy always say.. spend $ of coz must happy lar :P
tt time we ran away from others... this time round its still a run away for me.. perhaps from myself..
