Tuesday, September 07, 2010
~ 12:55 AM ~
being a good sis, went to get tauhuay for my bro tonight.. (haha if he saw this he'll scream "you want to eat one lor!" =P) anyway.. decided to have a short jog by going from the longer route..
its been sooooooooo long.. been giving myself excuses eg. projects and stuff..
by just a short jog, can feel that really need to start running again le..
left foot was bad.. guess it will be a permanent problem that i just need to get use to bah..
the other parts were not tt well too..
more reasons to start working out i guess...
since exerciseing is supposed to make one healthier isn't it :P
as i came back to see my logs.. its been 2 months since last exercise.. time to get started :)
afterall, others been running consistently.. still not so far ahead.. hope i still can still keep them in sight bah.. haha.
on the way back.. thought about lots of things..
i can't get why care enough to update, to know, but not sufficient to just talk.
i still don't really understand.. i still hope to explain..
guess i don't like the 死了都不知道发生什么事的 feeling ba..
i always thought i'll still love things to be like..
but just now i realise that i'm no longer sure what i'll want anymore..
afterall the road infront of me is uncertain as well..
this realisation was quite a surprise to myself haha.
perhaps almighty up there knew that all along, that's why he has not done anything..
but i also realise.. i most prob will never have a decision made.. lol.
don't really matter, as i always say "what's meant to be will be" haha.
as i sort my thoughts and deal with one on the way back..
i came home and saw something that seems to be reminding me that the other might also be far away soon.. been feeling the distance grow..
now there's others who play a better part than i do.. time for me to slowly fade away.. :)
perhaps all these are god's ways of telling me.. "time's up".
perhaps.. perhaps.. till the day that i have the courage to go check it out..
