The last entry was one of those times when everything doesn't seems to matter anymore and I just write whatever I felt..
but the after effect of that, after the impulsive feeling is gone.. is always awkward for myself. Its like getting drunk or something and you ended running around naked only to be totally embarrass bout it the next day.. haha. ok.. not so extreme lar. perhaps 0.1% of that feeling ba.. lol.
went back to school to find again.. but its still not at the lost and found counter.. haiz.
will it ever comes back? only thing i can do is to keep going back and ask..
i'm becoming paranoid of losing everything right now.. but even so.. i bet i'll still lost something soon..
心不知跑去了哪里..these few days keep 心不在焉.. haiz. just now i alighted at YCK instead of khatib without realising.. only realise when i'm about to go down the escalator.. =/
i guess i'll never be able to catch up with them anymore.. they seems to be going faster while i'm still going slow.. doesn't matter whether i've been trying or not, its the end result that matter.. and i doubt i'll be able to follow their pace.. afterall i've been lagging behind them all these while.. just that they will always wait for me.. but don't think they'll be doing that for me for the next one.. haha. i'm on my own..
another thing.. i realised today.. how i'm in fact afraid that this little thing stop too.. pls don't. bybgw totally... =/
someone fb status said 'smile, even if it's a sad smile, cos sadder than a sad smile is the sadness of not knowing how to smile at all... =)'
saw it on the bus.. and i tried to smile.. but 鼻子酸酸的 =/
haiz. but whatever shit comes along.. life still goes on.
