Wednesday, October 27, 2010
~ 7:19 PM ~
Yesterday, 261010, tuesday.. I'm almost totally out of this world for 1 day..
groggy.. only know i was drifting in and out of lala land..
not sure what went wrong.. a very bad flu i guess.. terrible headache, awful block nose, feverish as usual and whole body was aching..
woke up, tried to study but ended up nodding off at the table with a bad neck ache on top of the headache as a result.. nothing is getting in, took 2 panadol and sleep.. hoping that the next time i wake up can be more productive..
woke up with a very dry mouth and throat.. nose block totally. on the com and was thinking of using it awhile and start work.. and before i know.. the flu medication made me drift off to lala land again. even computer can't make me stay awake..
and the cycle just cont'..
medication seldom make me concuss. normally just drowsy but i can still stay awake.. but yesterday was horrible.. though today nose was still block.. and head is still heavy.. its better than yesterday and i'm not taking anymore medication.. need to study!! haiz. =/ gotta hang in there! like we always say.. "its all in the mind.." perhaps i repeat to myself that more often I'll be alright soon.. =X haha.
hmm.. i never know what's the right thing to say at the right time..
sometimes i don't even know when to say 'hi', 'bye'..
reminded me of the discussion we once had about me speaking up, argue it rather than just gave in with 'ok lor'..
but then.. one of the few times i tried to do that.. hasn't things show that once i tried to elaborate my point, it will often make things turn bad.. the last time proven the point.. and no matter how much i try to make things better later don't seems to work too.. haiz.
its just easier to keep to myself.. but that doesn't mean I don't care.. I care too much.. to risk doing things wrong.. tt's y i always say i'll be there.. cos tt's the only thing i know, to show my presence and support that i care.. cos if i'm not there.. my words, messages will most prob ended up interpreted wrongly, sound totally different and make things worse.. haha.
I should stick to the 'ok?' style rather than the 'are you ok?'.. haha.
take care k! !wsbberacekat
it reminded me of the dream i had sometimes ago regarding 'is my friend'... if anyone remember haha..
有着那种安慰..
hmm.. also realised something else.. well suspected that.. just a confirmation indeed. haiz.
just sad to know ii'm no longer in the private circle ba.. haha.
but then.. i know too well to think that i'll still be in..
