Wednesday, January 12, 2011
~ 12:24 AM ~
HAPPY NEW YEAR! :) my first post for 2011! haha.
2011 has been not too bad till now..
there's some down point.. but there's also many up points to balance it up..
2010 is now history.. may the good memories and let the bad memories be gone..
didn't manage to do a proper entry before 2010 ended on 31st.. lol.
rushed off to have the last xingfu - billy bomber's milkshake! :)
haha.
so.. 2010.. was a year of up and down.. was being brought up high from the pits.. and then thrown back down.. even lower deeper than before.. took months to slowly struggle up again.. but looking back i guessed that things were just meant to be this way ba.. and eventually i let go of everything.. well not really.. still learning :)
if i was to choose a song for 2010 i'll say.. '哭过就好了'
哭过就好了 痛都会走的
记忆有限 所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌 想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了
yupyup.. thankful for everything.. and if things were meant to be.. the day will come eventually..
not sure if my changes had been good or bad.. but it had given me a new perspective to look at things..
learned not to be so 执著, learned to remind myself that everyone have their own perspective, their own life.. what meant the world to me might not meant anything to others.. i shouldn't be unhappy about it and things i've no control on.. and it of course led to the final one.. learning to let things go.. lol guess it will be a lifelong process to keep learning and reminding myself.. 2010 just help to speed up my learning process lol.
as a result, felt that i've become more independent le ba haha.. no longer just basing my decisions on them.. learning to do things alone.. though sometimes alone time is good.. but truthfully speaking.. its never as good as doing with friends.. esp. with them.. and many times, i'll just end up thinking of the past.. the memories.. but still i did take the first step to do it alone! haha. something that i won't have the courage for in the past.. haha.
ok! enough of 2010! its 2011 let's move on to new year eve.. :)
lol right now its 040111.. new year eve till now, most days had been hectic and crazy.. other times were sleeping time haha. the above were being started on 020111 but well.. ended up sleeping on the table :P
so let's just continue with new year's eve..
so.. like mentioned above.. went out for Billy Bombers before countdown..
half day on that day.. i quite miss the joyous celebrations in uob pb.. cos at pv block 4 it felt just like any other normal day.. no festive feel.. quite a saddening sight for new year eve and when thinking that that's how the residents going to spend their new year.. like 1 resident told me before 'stay here also stay for 10+ years already.. doesn't really matter what date it is anymore..' haiz.. was thinking.. if i were to be in their position, i might not have the strength to live on.. they've shown me another aspect of life..
(just sidetrack a bit.. :P last week at work.. doing all i can for them during the last sessions i had with them.. come friday there'll be a no. of them i'll miss.. last time at work, there's only those colleagues i work with that will come to miss.. now there's so many of them.. and unlike the colleagues whom i could meet up now and then.. but it will be hard to get in to visit them..)
okok back to topic.. so after xingfu.. me and lishi went to search for the 'Great Firework' spot.. while ms tan went for.. erh hem.. dinner haha. well.. went to the usual bridge to find the usual spot.. and then.. we realised that the bridge view was blocked off by canvas! horrible. walked around trying to find good spots.. only to realise most places are being blocked.. eventually still managed to find a good spot at clifford pier..
well lets fast forward to the countdown and fireworks.. nothing interesting in between..
aunty didn't managed to rush back to join us for the fireworks..
by 11++ the pier was packed.. crowded with no space to move around..
come 0000h as we welcome 010111.. POM! POM! POM! the sky lighted up with the fireworks..
despite the crowd.. despite having friends around.. at the moment i felt that its just me and the fireworks.. the feeling of loneliness.. then i made a thousand wishes.. ok its more of a few wishes made a thousand times.. lol.
hope that 2011 will be a better year.. hope they'll be safe and happy.. wherever they are.. whatever they are doing.. and hope that i've the strength to stand alone and be happy regardless of what life gives me, not to be bothered so easily but be happy for them always..
as I made these wishes.. it just happened that the sky was filled with purple blue green fireworks.. haha..
i held back the water turning around.. lol.
so.. to make the wishes come true i've got to put in the effort..
put on a smile and enjoyed the remaining fireworks.. this year's fireworks' peak for me was not the spectacular ending at the back.. but the part with three special colours in the sky with my wishes up there.. :)
But easily said but not that easily done.. the very night itself my 'strength' was put to test.. lol.
grew very impatient at times but reminded myself.. to be happy, to be happy for them no matter what..
and well.. after finally meeting up with all.. the night ended not too bad.. :)
ok now.. its 110111 and i've yet to finish this entry and its like stuck for a long long time..
it more than 1 week since new year.. and the mood then had all been slowly dispersed and gone.. shall do a summary then.. :)
so after countdown, stay out, took the first train back.. and i've learned that train starts later on public holiday.. zzz. reached home, rushed out again.. R. and as i was rushing there, i was thinking.. finally its the last one.. but right now.. seems that things are not going good.. argh. see how things go ba..
and finally got my sleep and met up with the uob gang at night!
the usual few but its also quite amazing as we think about it.. cos we only meet up once a year.. and the only common bond we had was working together.. haha. but the bond was strong.. hard to find such colleagues ya.. lol. had the very nice ramen.. and the yearly mahjong session at Jo's place! haha. and its a repeat of last year.. cos i lost again -_- haha. cleared a mahjong craving though haha.
ok! guess that's all for the new year weekend ya? lol. come to see.. its actually not that long.. just that there's too many things to do in the first week.. clearing all the stuff at work, settling all the leftover from commitment from 2010.. and finally I'm more Free! but soon school work will be all here..
well let's just take things in stride!
may we always be safe, alive, truly happy.. where ever we are.. what ever we are doing..
may 2011 be a bless year for all of us..
