Wednesday, January 19, 2011
~ 3:45 AM ~
Its the last 十五 before chinese new year.. 15 more days till cny..
room in a mess.. room in boxes, boxes in room. lol.
most things i had are now in boxes in my room. only those so impt. are on display now.. whole house got repainted.. but well my room still looks the same haha. when trying to select the colours.. it reminded me of tt time..
well had my first jog this year.. first run since stand chart.. tt's more than 1 month ago.. =/ haha.
and the result of 1 month hiatus = almost dead.. =X hard time climbing the slopes and everything was at a slower pace with more effort.. the pace i'm running now is back to the days when i just started running regularly..
need to start running again..
well this is the only good thing about sch reopening.. somehow i feel like running more often when sch starts haha.
well just a side note.. sch screw up the body too.. =/ tried maintaining the sleep and wake up early routine as working days but well.. i just lack the discipline ba. and as school reopens, the odd hours of lessons, the odd hours of waking and sleeping.. results in odd hours of eating. stomach been acting up now and then again. =S
haha. saw a quote that says 'Follow the advices that you will give to others'. will always tell them.. must eat! not hungry also try eat a little bit.. drink something.. haha. but come to myself.. it just never work..
advices to myself is just not valuable enough.. it meant nothing..
well.. body is indeed getting.. =/
left ankle is argh. the slight twist on new year eve doesn't seems to be getting better.. though its seems nothing much most of the time.. not restricting movement or anything.. but the pain during run escalate during the run.. gotta bear with it..
other parts are also.. =/ haiz..
with the last pay coming in.. perhaps its time to get the parts check. haha.
haiz.. the last entry i was still talking about 'superman', and the next day off i go flying around again..
it won't have matter if nothing happened.. but.. but.. well there's always a but isn't it..
my hard disk dropped and died. i don't even noe why i brought out my com in the first place..
and.. no one cares.
went away for 30mins after i know the stuff's gone.. heart's dead that evening. wipe away the tears and need to put on the smiles like nothing's wrong. then i wondered.. if she knows the pain.. i doubt so.
angry with myself.. angry with..
the last few weeks i kept having the feeling that somethings going to happen to my hard disk.. kept telling my bro I'm going to back it up.. had even dug up the disc to burn the stuff in.. decided to back up after this sat.. but it can't even wait till then.. haiz. can't retrieve like how i did the previous time.. this time round its hardware problem unlike the software problem previously.. still got a last resort that i've read online that's said to work 60% of the time.. but once tried.. it will be really dead after that.. even if failed.. still debating with myself what's the next course of action.. haiz,
i dunno if i'll be that bless once again to retrieve everything.. there's lots of stuff in it.. haiz. the memories of how my hard disk died the previous time came flooding back to me.. things were still so clear.. and i remembered what she's told me after that..
no one to share the joy and sorrow this time round..
well.. i've learnt to live with it.. just like this time round.. though it still hurts like crap, i've learned to ignore it..
afterall.. life's too short.
too tired to read through le.. bet some points don't make any sense haha. nitez.
