Monday, February 07, 2011
~ 2:55 AM ~
the main part of CNY came and passed..
For most part, I've enjoyed the festive season with all the good food and family time..
but there's time the ever loud and rar-rar atmosphere is just too overwhelming.. sometimes am tired from constantly maintaining a smile.. the feeling of being alone despite the crowd.. will then escape from all in the room when home or at grandparents' place..
初一 at 外婆place.. stayed away from the others.. lazing on the bed.. and it came to me that, last year cny i nua in the same room on the first day too with my 'pig trotter' lol.. last year, was on the phone talking also on fb 'chatting' and i wonder.. how's their new year this year.. wonder if everything's good.. hope so.. :)
sat, family made a last min decision to came over my place for the annual steamboat..
didn't get anyone else over..
one of the rare moments when i'm alone in my room.. it came to me that.. its the first time in 4 years that cny's without either.. 08, 09 and last year was the few hours of 初一... lol. this year going to baibai.. i remembered how i jumped and wobbled.. lol.
time flies.. things change.. only memories stay..
life's a joke.
well got darldarl though lol. last min visit to her place.. :)
but.. i'm greedy.. very greedy.. and hope for 2 more.. :(
went down to floating platform today.. though there's nothing much there.. it still gave me lots of goosebumps.. and being the emo time.. its just tons of memories we had there.. lol.
well all in all.. its still a not bad cny till now.. happening new year too..
several new stuff around the house..
nearly lost my phone.. and finding it mysteriously..
a lovebird became the family pet for the last few days..
driving again after about 20 months.. (and i miss my p-plate gift..=/ )
and all the games and laughter for the last few days..
time to get back to work though.. haiz.
lessons to start again tml..
today.. it must be the emo period soon =/ emo day..
i already knew but knowing it again still caused an impact.. and the fact that i know she won't think there's anything wrong made everything worse..
i really wish they'll be there..
i don't trust t.a.b anymore.. i only can have faith that things will eventually work out..