i knew things will end up this way the moment I left the exam hall.. its just like coms law.. but this time round its even harder.. cos that means delayed graduation.. haiz. and that means that I'm going to push that back again.. and everyday I wonder how long more that can wait.. we shall see how much I'm being blessed bah.. haha. pushing my luck..
running away by burying myself with all the camp stuff.. camp stuff camp stuff and camp stuff.. cos other than that.. nothing much to turn to.. at least camp stuff are familiar stuff that I've control in.. being around with people not that close are too tiring.. nothing much to look forward to.. and once there's nothing to do.. its either the emo thoughts or the result thoughts will come in.. best to stay busy.. at least there's those crappy stuff that don't make sense for me to curse and swear at haha.
but sometimes these camp stuff are just too much to bear too.. no aunty around to help this time round.. in the past its always us doing all the 'clear up', editing, redoing.. this time round.. mostly doing it alone.. well lishi helped lots too.. but its not the same.. guess its just another thing that change over time.. thinking.. this should be the last time i'm doing these things at this depth too..
today pulled back to reality.. didn't felt like doing anything.. no matter how far I tried to run.. there's no way to stay away forever.. faced reality at night.. as expected ya, but still a disappointment. and the first thought was to run again.. lol. felt like going for a ride.. but nah can't get out of the house with my bike at night with everyone home.. lol..
tml.. will be back to camp stuff camp stuff and camp stuff again.. gotta start putting plan b into play too.. cos life goes on..
Congrats to all those who grad! Time to start another journey of life! to bbsw too.. working towards her dream.. :) though I dunno anymore stories.. may all her stories be great!
Don't ask me if I'm ok.. Cos the answer will always be "ya.."
