to many its just a public holiday to enjoy.. perhaps to see fireworks..
for those who're involved in the parade, its the day they showcase their months of hardwork to the country..
for those who're once involved, its a trip down memory lane.. be it good or bad(for those ns guys who can't wait to ord haha
for me.. its so much more..
in the past to me ndp is a public holiday.. a day where I'll feel extremely proud to be Sinagporean.. a day to enjoy fireworks etc..
3 years ago.. ndp was special.. and to me.. that's when ndp meant something more..
2 years ago.. being involved in the parade.. going through the process with good friends.. new friends.. and bestest.. gave me such a great memory of ndp.. with many things going on then.. it was not easy.. but that made me treasure it even more.. 越辛苦得到的， 越是珍贵..
1 year ago.. ndp was like sea of memories.. though great, was also causing pain.. cos everything changes..
reading back on my entry last year.. I wrote..
"will wash and hang up the shirt. the other one too.
以后的路，有谁在身旁就和谁一起走，左手右手会学习自己拉着自己走"
"有谁在身旁就和谁一起走" guess can consider that I did this too? no longer expecting.. if have its a bonus.. if not, its also no longer as hard to move on..
"左手右手会学习自己拉着自己走" well.. I guess this will be a point I still can't achieve.. truthfully speaking, I guess I'm still at the same spot when I'm alone.. I've moved on externally.. but internally.. I guess not.. I'm not sure myself..
just like right now.. guess I'm in the same position as I am a year ago.. perhaps.. last year there's still a tinge of hope where this year I've none.. but mentally.. I've not grown much.. (physically grown much fatter though! :/ oops sidetrack lol) haiz. but come tomorrow.. out there I'll be alright once again.. guess I'll be able to enjoy more easily than last year.. well.. my guess.. gotta confirm it tml though lol.
其实，我认为 0908 的凌晨比白天难过多了 (harder to get through..) cos staying up together with each other presence was a choice..
seriously I dunno what I'm typing here.. I'm just writing whatever comes to my mind and these words don't justify anything that's actually going through my mind..
