Wednesday, November 30, 2011
~ 1:05 PM ~
didn't realis that its been 14 days, 2 weeks in exact since the last post.. haha.
30112011.. hmm.. just a warning, this post is most probably to end up as an emo, no one can understand post lol. today's date say that I can be emo :P haha.
lol actually even when I want to be emo these days I don't know how to anymore.. it just comes and goes too easily these days.. 最高境界.. 什么东西在一瞬间，我都可以不在乎.. or put it this way, cos I've to put up a '不在乎' front for others, and eventually I deceived myself too.. cos whenever I dig deeper, all the shit still hurts lol.
"We are so accustomed to disguise ourselves to others, that in the end, we become disguised to ourselves." - François de la Rochefoucauld
but most of the time I don't dig anymore.. days are easier this way.. though, not caring bout anything left a big void in life.. hmm. then I'll think of bigger questions like, "What's my purpose here in life?" lol. then I'll try to avoid everything and just get out of my own scary mind. lol
am Broked these days.. broke and bored. lol. so much so that I walked all the way from tanjong pagar back home last week after my lunch with ex colleagues.. haha. interesting solo walk.. walk through places.. and smiling at those past memories. and I realised.. many of those memories are new and its with many others.. those old memories are just like a distant past.. a past that now brings smile..
walked past Orchard.. starting point for stand chart last year.
stand chart advertisement on MRT's screen.. and all over singapore too..
Feels weird not to be running stand chart this year.. feels weird to have my first sunday on december free after 3 years..
3 years of stand chart.. I've completed 1 cycle.. time for a break.. and if possible.. I'll start another 3 years cycle..
each year of stand chart taught me somethings..
1st year crazy us.. went to 42 with just a 10k experience.. but it taught me.. anything is possible with perseverance, with friends.. I always remember you saying "no matter how hard it is, we pull each other and finished it" we finished the race hand in hand..
2nd year, we went back once again.. this time round with uncle edmund.. and I've learnt, fun and laughter with friends make any tough journey a memorable one.. "Just do it", "Nothing is impossible"!
last year, the 3rd one.. i've learned that nothing's forever.. and no matter what happened, life goes on and we just have to carry on.. one of the toughest run i've done.. mentally.
walking back home that day.. along the yck to yishun stretch.. I remebered the first time I tried to walk back from amk to yishun years ago.. the next day is the first time we went 'shopping' at amk hub together.. just happened to meet at khatib station.. still remembered the whole situation was a bit weird.. lol. I was telling you bout my walk, and how the cars from SLE are travelling super fast, you said "oh next time you went missing I know where to go find your body lol". I think you won't care now though haha.
ok i'm being super random..
just received something.. ok you win. it hurts. well done. ok it don't really make a diff anyway..
just that it hurts.. :/ ARGHHHHH!!!
anyway.. still..
Happy Birthday my friend! take care ya.. sasath..
i'm an idiot.. haiz.
